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ATTENTION PEOPLE!!

2005-11-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

OKAY PEEPS!! MY URL HAS BEEN CHANGED DUE TO SOME REASONS. SO, DO EMAIL MIE AT muackz_me@hotmail.com IF YEW NEED MY NEW URL ADDY AITES. TYLL DEN TAKE KAIRE. AND TO DAT SOMEONE WHU IS GOING AROUND BUGGING PEOPLES LYFE, PLEASE GET A LIFE OF YEWR OWN. AND DONT GO AROUND BUGGING OTHERS LYFE. GET A LIFE!!

UNOFFICIAL STYLL?

2005-11-28T12:45:00.000+08:00

now i simply carn be bothered with petty things coz i know i got some other better, major, big problems that i should focus and solve it FIRST. i don't give a shit if yew people out dere wanna hate me or go against me. do whatever yew wish kayss. i just don't give a damn cos i've got my own life to lead.

okayy. so here i am at 12.45pm blogging in my thotss for de day. not wanting to but upon request by my BESTIE. (: so, i'll update for yesterday aites. and i'll return again tonite for todays entry.

my plan for yesterday was to go for a murnyng jog, be home to shower everything and off to turf city. to accompany my bestie to buy a new cellfone. but it was all ruined. didnt went for de murnyng jog cos i woke up layte. woke up only at 1o and dat was wen my bestie called to confirm wit mie on where to meet and etc. hehex. layzee me.

didnt want to get up from de bed actuallie but since i had promised her so hadta weder i want it or not. so quickly grabbed my shert and skert from de wardrobe and went to bath. met her at de pondok and took de bus to clementi. was wayting for de shuttle bus to turf city wen i bumped into mafteem's ghurlie. wayted for abt fifteen minutes and finally de shuttle bus came. took it till turf city and went to de starhub shop. and it wasnt our day cos yew haf to be 8teen in order to subscribe for a NEW line. damn! wasted effort. so we headed for macdonalds to haf my breakfast.

after eating, we took de shuttle bus back to clementi. and decided to cab down to West Mall. and dere was where she finally made up her mind to buy de sony ericsson k7ooi. phew. so relieved dat i dont hafta walked around anymore. hehex. but not bad larh. besties using de same brand of cellfones. khekhe. rox on babe!!

de nyte of de day. . . was talking to hym on de fone wen suddenlie at eleven twenty, he popped de question up to mie ; which was very shocking. but styll, its not officialised yet arh. told hym to let de clock struck twelve den ask again but he didnt manage. cos both of us were too sleepy to hang on any longer on de fone. and he told mie to call hym layter. called hym at three in de murnyng but didnt talk for long cos he wanted to sliep. i hadta let hym sliep cos hes werking. so i guess 2811 wasnt meant to be de date for us to remember. but before i end, wanna do showt owts to some peeps.

SYZ NIRAH: oraitey babe! everytynks kewl now aites. i just wish yew all de verie best wit iwan and get well soon. (:

FISZ: wen on dis tiny earth are we meeting nie? i mish yew lei! and yew go larh change yewr werking schedule. den on thursday we can go and watch king kong. de show yew've been wanting to watch since lyk last week. change kayss. <3

kays larh peeps. going off from here cos preparing to go out wit my bestie for dinner tonite. anytynk just holla mie on my cell. and if yew dont haf my number den be my guest to tag on my board. take kaire people.

ups and downs of life.

2005-11-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

sorie larh ehk people for having to read de same old entry. just dat too many things haf been happening dis few daes dat i dont even haf de tyme to update my blog. things lyk. . .
[one] having someone slamming reality to my face. for my own good tho.
[two] being accused by someone i trusted so much of stealing her boyfriend. which i noe i never did.
[three] exam stress. which is finally over.

well. i noe it doesnt look many. onlie three points. but de effects dey brought to my life was simply tremendous!! but styll. i was born an easy going person. and my comments on those happenings in my lifes are as simple as ABC.

which about having reality slammed to my face ; i can accept it. i believe dat people do things to make others realise their mistakes. and wit de person slamming reality to my face, i began to learn about my strengths and weaknesses. so, tanx ya dude.

but ehk! i seriously carn accept it arh wen people go around creating stories which was never true. hey! it was yew whu left hym for anoder guy and now here yew are saying dat i stole hym away from yew? hello!! wake up please!! do yew need mie to be slamming reality to yewr face next? no ryte. i dont tynk yew'd lyk it if i were to be doing it cos i just went thru it so whoever gets it is gonna go thru worst. and yew're someone i dont wanna be doing dat stuffs to. haix. i wonder just wart shit is she throwing at mie now? i donoe larh wart de hell is happening to de werld.

ohwee. finally my exams are over. and now im having my six weeks of hols. happy dat i dont hafta face skewl. but wart am i gonna do xia? gosh!! carn haf my bestie wit mie all de tyme. cos her hols begins only in december. and dats lyk way far away. wayte slowly larh kayss steph. hahax. but how? how?

niwae! thanks ehk fisz for cheering mie up. i noe yew'd be dere. hehex. but sorie larh for disterbing yew by destroying yewr hair. tak sengajer larh. but disengajerkan. wakakaka!! bluweks!!

kayss larh peeps. im tired of typing sucha long storie. its begining to look lyk a composition oreadi. i bet yew guys must be cursing mie for rytting sucha long entry. hehex. feel free to tag and comment aites. lyk i've saed. i was born an eazy going person. (: ciaoz!!

lost

2005-11-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

aarrgghh!!!!! i just dunch noe wart to do NEXT. hey wayte! how am i supposed to noe wart to do next wen i dunch even noe wart to do NOW??? gosh!! but styll. tanx [[ezad]] for trying to cheer mie up yesterdae. i noe yew tried. but. . . yew FAILED. bluwekx!! =p

and dammit larh!! its been one week and my flu styll haszen dissapear. its running lyk tap water. and my tissues are de onlie thing filling de rubbish bins around my hauz. de next thing i hear is mama nagging. "MAKE SURE YEW CLEAR DE RUBBISH BINS EHK LAYTER!!" oh gosh!! i carn take it anymore. how i wish i cud take off my nose for a moment and wayte till its back to normal. *grinx*

My Immortal - Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with meI've been alone all along.

temptation

2005-11-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

haix. why am i feeling so down dis few daes? always having negative thoughts about people in my lyfe. kinda feeling lyke lyfe is a boring and draggy one. tynking dat its pointless to be living in dis complicated werld. and if its not because of some people whu is giving mie de strength to carry on, i dont tynk i will be living styll. donoe larh ehk people. *enuff yanaa. lets tynk positive now.

kkays. just edited my template. a new blogskin is finally up. not reallie new arh. i've used it once before. and is now re-using it. just feel lyk it. (: and was tynking of movies to catch during de skewl hols. *lyk finally de hiols are here. bluwekx. and here goes de list of movies *

.MOVIES.
~~* exorcism of emily rose *~~
* just like heaven ;
* the family stone ;
* history of violence ;
* chicken little ;
* the fog ;
* king kong ;
* saw

yanaa macam macam sakk movie dier list. stepping maner peh kayer jek nak buwat tu sumer. *ey! sukati arh. korang susah asal arh??* hahax. bluwekx.

exorcism of emily rose

2005-11-15T17:17:00.000+08:00

yew are de one whom i love so dearly
i dont wanna delude myself
i dont want to betray my feelings either
because i am de i in i love yew. (:
BUT STYLL. IM NOBODY TO SAE DE WERDS 'I LOVE YEW' COS I DONT EVEN NOE WTF IT MEANS. RYTE [[EZAD]]!!
gosh! i just realised sumtynk larh people. and dat is meeting once a week makes mie feel as if HE is in de army oreadi. hahax. but styll, its not dat badd larhh. jumpe takde gadoh or wartsoever misunderstandings. worthwhile larh kirekan ehk. bluwekx! but tyme mcm jealous shey. ticking so de fast. *grinx*

hahax. sorie larh ehk. just dat i feel lyk tyme is not fair to US. passing so fast wen i am around hym. jealous ehk! now i noe wart people mean dey sae 'tyme passes fast wen yew're having fun or is around yewr loved ones.' haix. okay larh. i wanna start updating about todae.

watched movie wit [[ezad]] today. went to Causeway Point alone to purchase a pair of movie tix. show entitled Exorcism Of Emily Rose. my idea to watch wit hym. alone just now cos he was styll having lessons. den met hym insyde de train at Khatib to head for Causeway Point. he was wit Cindy. *CINDY IS SO SWIET* Cindy trained tyll Sembawang to meet Ian.

he bought popcorns and coke to accompany hym during de show. it was freezing cold in dere tyll i borrowed his jacket. bluwekx. sorie ehk dude. i noe yew were cold too but hadta sacrifice de jacket. tanx ehk. hugs!

had KFC for lunch. eat and eat and eat tyll about three-thirty and we had to make a move cos he dowan to be layte for lesson. trained down wit hym tyll Yio Chu Kang. and managed to catch Cindy and Ian togeder. dey look so swiet togeder. so jealous. bluwekx. (:

trained to Clementi and got mama her Beef Noodle and finally here i am home sweet home blogging. (: kays people. i'm outta here. wanna get some sliep while wayting for hym to finish lesson at eight in de nyte. ciaosz!

escape theme park

2005-11-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

im shagged. . . but had a memorable dae owt wit [[ezad]] to Escape Theme Park. even wen i was down wit flu. well. dat was de ferst ever date dat got MIE sticky and all drenched in sweats. but styll, it was all worth it. hehex. tanx for it ehk. (:

so. . . we met at Jurong East MRT station at about 11o5HRS. was few minutes layte. *biaser jugak. people wayte for my arrival. hehex* den trained down all de way to Pasir Ris. hadta stand duing de whole journey. at least it wasnt so bored cos we were oreadi yakking lyk nobody's business. *mcm dah kenal lamer gituk* reaching dere at around 12ooHRS. and took bus number 354 to de theme park.

ferst thing we did upon reaching dere was to buy de tixs of course. it was on hym. entered de theme park and we headed for BK ferst. cos he hadnt eaten his breakfast. watched hym eat down dere cos i totallie had no appetite. ngah saket mahh.

headed for de lockers to keep our stuffs before we began our rides. strait after he finished eating agik. *entah makanan dalam perot tu dah digest ke lom* went for rides such as
* Daytona Beginner's Track
* Haunted
* Revolution
* Pirate Ship
* Alpha 8
* Flipper
* Inverter

love all those rides but my most favourites were haunted wen [[ezad]] kene kacau rabak rabak. and de FERST tyme i showted out of fear in front of a guy. hahax. and oso revolution. wen de thing turns 36o degrees and hangs us upside down. fulesmak. its marvellous larh. superb. hehex. we were so tired tyll both of us were oreadi in la la land wen we were in de train. bluwekx! den. . . de rest dat happened during de dae is meant for mie and hym to noe. (:

oraitey peeps!! im outta here. wanna meet someone in la la land. *wink* ciaos!!!

ATTENTION EVERYBODY: DIS A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO HYM FOR ACTING SO COLD TOWARDS HYM JUST NOW AT DE THEME PARK WEN I WAS JEALOUS. I DINT MEAN IT LARH JUST DAT. . . NEVAMYND LARH. JUST FORGET EVERYTHING. I NOE YEW'RE HERE TO STAY. SORIE MANY MANY EHK! NIWAE, I LOVE DE FEELING RESTING MY HEAD ON YEWR CHEST, ARMS AND SHOULDERS. AND YEWR VOICE ROX LARH! *MELTING* (:

behind these hazel eyes ; because of you.

2005-11-11T14:30:00.000+08:00

"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tal
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on.

tanx. (:

2005-11-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

thanks for all dat yew have done for mie. yew have ended my fairytale dreams and pulled mie back to reality.
I hafta admit it. i am hurt by yew. but im glad it happened now . and not layter. cos i noe its gonna be worsed if it have happened layter. from dis experience, i have learned to control my emotions. be patient. live life alone without anyone to love and sooner or layter hurt. and most importantly, walk on my OWN feet. yew HAVE scarred mie. and also carved yewr name out of my porcelain heart. but i noe dat its for my OWN good. thanks again. (:

because of yew,
i haf learned to live ALONE.
because of yew,
im now a STRONGER person.

someone who is learning to walk AGAIN.
and its on her OWN feets.
yew made me REALISE. . .
dat i DONT need LOVE,
in order to lead a HAPPY lyfe.
and dat LOVE is NOT everything is this werld.

now i noe dat it takes. . .
just ONE SPECIAL fren to make mie realise
UNCOUTABLE facts about ones lyfe.
i owe yew one. (:

wow!!

2005-11-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

"i know she wants me back but is just too egoistic to admit it"

well well well. how heartbroken and lost and twisted can a ghurl ever feel ryte after being told by someone she treasures dat de sentence was said by an ex of his. it seems to be a junk to her. but yew neva noe wart he is tynking.

den. . . next dat came was hym having an attitude change. kinda acting cold towards her. hym getting jealous more often den he should. her noes dat 'cemburu tande sayang' which wen translated means 'jealousy is anoder wae of saying i love yew'.

but hey! jgn mepek arh. shah is onie a guy i noe by name and face jek pe. itupon nak kecoh kecoh ke? i noe larh yew feel insecure pasal yew noe my past. but yew gotta trust mie baby. im not here to do shit! trust is de key to happiness. so i hope yew can trust mie aites. and i will take baby steps. (:

and i wanna share a love quote i came across while bloghopping. and dis is it.
[[.Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so whenever you're lonely, this is true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.]]

niwaekan baby. . . i feel lyk going to de movies. and i got two shows in mind. and dat is. . .
just like heaven

AND
the excorcism of emily rose

thot of watching it on dis saturdae? feel onie. if yew're not okay wit de idea den lets just forget it. i dont mind. (:

boring!

2005-11-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

im BORED to de MAX! not knowing wart to do at dis verie moment. hmm. i'll update my blog for todae larhh kayss. synce i've got nutink to do. and SHAH!!! yew rox my sockx. hehex. (:

had a dae owt wit my BESTIE, stephanie. headed for queenswae as she wanted to buy a spootid tee. no offence babe. (: but we decided to grab sumtynk to eat ferst at Macdonalds. i had Fillet meal while she had mcChicken meal. eat and eat and eat den we decided to shop around for our stuffs. bought her tee which rytes 'YOUR TSHIRT SUCKS'. dat spootid shert cost her $19.9o. hmm. watdeva ghurlie! hahax. browse around and saw dis shert which attracted my attention. nyce and girlish wit de werd 'DIVA'!! (: decided to buy dat $15.9o shert.

next, we cabbed down to Holland Village. decided to slack around at starbucks lyk nobodys business. hahax. and shah was dere too. he served us. (: had our drinks ; chatted lyk we've not seen each other for years and we were lyk idiots down dere yakking and larffing our hearts owt. hahax. reallie enjoyed it alot babe! shud do it more often! (:

cabbed back home and decided to blog in todaes entry cos was damn freaking bored. wen suddenlie a msg was recieved from auntie sue. and dis was how it went.
AUNTIE SUE: gatal eh!?
FARLYANNA: *feeling lost* huh? dah knape?
AUNTIE SUE: i noe where yew went just now.
FARLYANNA: hehex. yew mean shah told yew i came??
AUNTIE SUE: yah! whu didja bring along huh?
FARLYANNA: oh my gawd!! he styll remember us? kewl. ohh. i came wit stephanie. its a GHURL larhh. dont worrie. (: aper lagik huh dier kater?
AUNTIE SUE: takde pape lagik larh.

woah shah!! yew masey ingat ehk mie and my auntie?! kewl arh yew! padahal sekali jek kiter visit tu tempat. hehex. but styll. its nyce to noe yew remember us. taking caring dude!! (: AND!!! [[ezad]]!!! where on dis tiny earth are yew?? im missing yew many many larh b. . !! TWELVE NOVEMBER TWENTY O FIVE kayss. hugs!! <3

smyle!

2005-11-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

okay okay. i believe yew people must be cursing mie ryte now for not blogging. hehex. actuallie ryte, its not dat i dont want to. but it just dat synce its hari raya den i'll tag along to visit my relatives place. and by de tyme i reach home, it will be so layte dat i haf got not much of energy to blog. somtymes i even sliep wit my kebaye. too tired. hehex.

dae one of hari raya made mie 'de pynk laydee'. wore pynk tube wit a transparent long sleeve and a foldover ; pynk earings and pynk necklace ; pynk shoe. luckily my lenses and bag was not pynk. (: wore a grey lenses and black bag. hahax.

kays peepes. heres two of de pix i took. before i forget, i wanna wish [[ezad]] HAPPIE 8TEEN BERFDAE!! and dis pix are for yew. (:

[[TAKEN ON DE FERST DAE OF RAYA]]

tynking of HYM. putting on de smyle dat hides a thousand tears. :(
[[TAKEN ON DE THIRD DAE OF RAYA]]

nie swiet kan!! hehex. i love de eyes and smyle!! killing babe! *i noe self praising is BAD* (:

where is he?

2005-11-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

where is he?! wart is he doing?! do i cross his mind?! do i even exist in his lyfe?! - dis questions has been running thru my mind synce 3pm todae. it seems lyk tyme is passing soo damn slow wen hes away. werking his ass off. haix. i miss hym many many larh xia! how i wish he was here by my syde. having his hugs and kisses. aww. i'll be on cloud nine if dat happens. woitx! stop dae dreaming nur farlyanna!! (:

kkays. todae ehk? skipped skewl in de murnyng. layzee and no energy to wake up. body was aching lyk hell. due to yesterdae larh. (: skipped skewl but styll stepped yishun. cos hadta do c.i.p weder i want it or not. cos din do last term. supposed to be in skewl at 13oo but at 12.3o den i left my hauz. hehex. biasa jugak. people must wayte for my arrival. *angelic smyle*

reached yishun at ard 132o . wanted to deposit some cash but de spootid machine cannot use. so headed strait for skewl. reached dere, marked attendance and left onlie at 141o. i noe i came layter xia. dey provided a bus to de blocks we needed to go. did c.i.p wit afy. den slacked around and wen to shell to buy chcolate, lollipop and starbucks frappuccino. but my mind was seriously not dere xia. was away tynking of my SPECIAL fren. (:

finished c.i.p at around 163o. den walked to marsiling mrt station to train down to clementi. deposited cash and did some transactions. took bus number 147 from dere and dropped by grannie's place. niat di hati wanna help her cos she was expecting visitors but i feel asleep as soon as i reached dere. hehex. slept for 6 hours pluz. tak tercapai niat di hati. sowie ehk grannie. tak sengaje larh.

went back home wayting for his text to reach mie but it didnt. i guess hes too tired skewling and werking at de same tyme. takpe dear. i paham. yew make sure yew rest well taw! dah overwork den must rest! i dont want yew to fall sick. nanti saper susah? i jugak. hehex.

kays larh peeps. wanna go watch de teevee dats been on synce just now but unwatched. hehex. pandai yanaa waste electricity. (: miss yew baby!! flying kisses to yew!! *yanaa hugs hym tyte tyte!!*

bored

2005-11-03T05:45:00.000+08:00

ohwee!~ rayer dis year is sooo much more meaningful for mie. wit my SPECAIL fren being de ferst to wish mie "b. . . camat hari raye." de message came ryte after de mufti saed dat todae is de 1st dae of Syawal and takbir was being played on air. aww. swiet kan aayang kiter. hehex. but sorie larh ehk ghurlis owt dere. unfortunately he's MYNE. so, please kindly BUZZ OFF!!! bluweks.

kays larh. i wanna take dis opportunity to do a few showt owts to some important peeps in my lyfe.

->[[ezad]]: i miss yew many many larh dear! nak yewr hugs and kisses boley? hehex. psst psst. its oreadi November larh dear!! *wink* yew noe i noe wart. hehex. ehk! i wanna take dis opportunity to hulur 1o jari memohon maaf. i noe i've offended yew uncountable tymes and pissed yew off too. nort to forget, vent my anger on yew and made yew my punching bag. ooppss. *byk jugak salah i pat yew ehk* hehex. sowie ehk baby boy. dah rayer and nak dekat berfydae. so cannot marah marah. nanti cepat tue. hahax. camat hari raye aayang!! and about yewr LOST wallet tu. i donoe wart to sae larh b. . . but watdeva it is, yew nakmo stress stress kays. remember wart i swore to yew. i'll be dere for yew! i mean it. i reallie do. smyle kayss. lastly, grow old wimme kayss dear!! (: miss ya many many!!! hugs and smuackzz!!

-> Syz Nirah: dont worrie syz. i was taught to forgive and forget. agipon dah rayer. so, kene bermaafan. yewr apology is accepted. (: and i oso wanna apologise for all de wrongdoings i did. fo example, de potong jalan thingy. sowie ehk syz. bkn nak ungkit. cumer nak pinta kemaafan. tekaire aites syz. CAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

-> Huda: hey ghurlie! aku tawu aku banyak buwat salah pat kau. sorie byk byk ye. camat harie rayer and all de best wit acul! * he's getting betta oreadi* (:

-> bloghoppers: to those Muslim peeps, CAMAT HARI RAYA!! and to those non-muslim, happi holdae. hehex.

my my my

2005-10-29T10:11:00.000+08:00

well done nur farlyanna. . . just wart de hell is wrong wit yew huh? going around venting yewr anger on everybody like its nobody's business. two daes ago, it was [[ezad]]. just because yew became de PMS bytch. yew were lucky for dat dae as he understood yew and was patient enuff to tolerate yew. and now its anoder important person in yewr lyfe. de reason ; because yew got pissed reading a cuzzie's blog entry. well. i guess dis tyme round yew're not as lucky as before. yew've gotta find a wae owt as not to make matters worse. hmm.

yelah. . ! i was born on dis earth to steal peoples boifrens pe! im always de reason for couples to end thier relationship and go their seperate waes! im always de batu penghalang. im always de reason 'love triangle' to formed between lovebirds. its always all MY fault pe! all nur farlyanna's fault. well. watdeva larh kayss people. i wonder warts de point of living ; if all people accuse yew of doing is offend dem, hurt dem and force dem to make SACRIFICES!!

haix. but styll. i can consider myself lucky as i styll haf [[ezad]] to be dere for mie. to cheer mie up and draw a smyle on my face again even wen i was going thru 'depression'. de state where people wud onlie tynk of suicide as de wae owt. he saved mie by touching mie wit all his werds. "b. . . u ok ke tak? ? ? im here for u taw. take care. takmo stress stress. hugz. smuack. - den it was - "b. . . i read ______ blog. *names are meant to be protected* u bingit sal tu ehk. . . relex k. . . u still haf mie right? *aww. hes swiet* wen u are awake i taknak u stress k. . . if u are unhappi, i oso unhappi. i had a tough day oso. . . lets sliep and make tmlo a betta one. im sori if i made u felt dat i wasnt der for u just now. i tried. . . i miss u so so much u noe tat. *i miss yew too baby* sliep tite sweetheart. . . muacks and hugz. . "

damn! i gotta to admit dat he is de swietest guy i ever came across. swieter den honey. and hes MYNE!! hehex. bear in mind, STAE AWAY from HYM cos hes MYNE!! hahax. de werds saed by hym arent just swiet talking lyk which an arse did to make mie fall for hym!! yoikx. enuff farlyanna! betta stop it and nort further elaborate. de more yew elaborate, de more yew're gonna hate de person. 'benci-benci pon ex jugak pe.'

honey. . !! tanx a million for being dere. i've gotta sae dat yew're de best thing dat ever happened to my lyfe. and i just donch noe how my lyfe wud be now if yew hadnt come to de rescue of saving mie from tynking of 'suicide as de onlie wae owt.' wit yew around, my lyfe is sooo clear and smooth. *aiks. mcm kenal jek nie sentence* hehex. we share share larh. kater sehati sejiwa. ((= miss ya so so many many honey bunch. . ! hugsss. muackz muackz!!

it was YEW whu PLUCKED mie OWT from de BOTTOMLESS pit ; yew walked WIT mie THRU de my DARKEST hour and became my BEACON of lyte in my DARK tunnel. and for dat, i TRULY love yew!!

de boi i found in hym. ((=

2005-10-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

[[.de boy i found in hym.]]
* He is de bad boy ; but a bad boy with a soft side.
* He is de boy who wud always make me laugh.
* He is de boy that acts normal around anyone.
* He is de boy who would tell a girl that he haf a special friend.
* He is de boy who told mie he would make out in the rain with me.
* He is de boy who told mie he would lay under the stars and tell me stories as I lay my head on his chest.
* He is de boy who would come up behind me ; take my hands ; and lay his head on my shoulder. so I can put mine on his.
* He is de boy who feels jealous. [cemburu tande sayang ehk?]
* He is de boy who lets me pay for somethings.
* He is de boy who would do something special for me if I was having a bad day.
* He is de boy who will tell me he misses me when I get to school.
* He is de boy who would take someones cell phone ; just to call mie and find out where am I.
* He is de boy who draw a smile on my face wen we see each other.
* He is de boy who would let me take pictures of him and put them in my binder.
* He is de boy who would call me at 3am and ask me what I was doing ; and tell me he was thinking about me.
* He is de boy who would pick out a song that made him think of me.
* He is de boy who likes some of my music ; and I would like some of his ; even though we both in the first place hated it; but now love it cause they like it.
* He is de boy who would help me if I was having problems at home.
* He is de boy who would pretty much do anything for mie.
[[.de boy i wish to find in hym.]]
* De boy who will let me play with his hair.
* De boy who will stop and wait for me in the hall ; take my hand ; and walk me two classes away.
* De boy who will never be ashamed of me.
* De boy who would go to something even though he doesnt want to ; just to see me.
* De boy who will run his fingers through my hair.
* De boy who would take the long way to class and be late just to see me for 30 seconds.
* De boy who would stay after school with me just to walk around and talk.
* De boy that can free style for me.
* De boy that would look me in the eyes and sing me something random but sweet.
* De boy who would wait for me outside the bathroom.
* De boy who would write on "Happy Birthday" on a chalkboard in one of my classes on my birthday.
* De boy who would tell me things through my friends.
* De boy who yells my name from across the hall.
* De boy who would meet me at my locker every morning and at dismissal.
* De boy who would come and sit with me and my friends.
* De boy who would beat another guys ass if they were messing with me.
* De boy who would buy me 25 cent rings from gumball machines.
* De boy who would go to the mall with me and we'd make fun of people.
* De boy who would go places with me and my friends even though he'd be the only guy.
* De boy who would laugh at me when I get a detention ; only because he's sitting there next to me for the same reason.
* De boy who would carry my books for me.
* De boy who would help me with my homework ; eventho he doesnt know it either.
* De boy who would burn me a CD of songs that make him think of me ; and I'd do the same.
* De boy who would take the blame for me being late.
* De boy who would pin me against a wall and kiss me.
* De boy who would take me to the movies and see a stupid kid movie; just so we can sit in the back and make out.
* De boy who makes his friends jealous of me because he talks about me so much.
* De boy who lets me take pictures of him at embarrassing times.

`` FARLYANNA _ yew are my one and onlie eye candy . - *hym+her* [[.miss yew many many.]]

sorrie!

2005-10-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

finally my new blogskin is up for display. hehex. changed it and it is dedicated to [[ezad]]. ((= [[.i'll be yewr dream ; i'll be yewr wish ; i'll be yewr fantasy. i'll be yewr hope ; i'll be yewr love ; be everything dat yew need. i love yew more den every breath ; TRULY MADLY DEEPLY DO]]

but. . . aww. i feel sho guilty at dis verie moment in tyme. guilty for not giving [[ezad]] a murnyng call to wake hym up just now murnyng. dat lead to hym having to skip his FERST lesson for de dae and rush for de SECOND one. aarrgghh! [[.im sorrie honey bunch!!.]]

den after skewl he styll gotta werk tyll as layte as 11pm. haiz. i carn bear to see hym having de werld on his shoulders! how i wish i cud do sometynk to help. well. dis is wart happen wen yew become a man with responsibilities. just remember dat i'll be dere for yew ; dis five werds i swear to yew. ((=

now im gonna do a short showt out. . .
to[[ezad]]: HONEY BUNCH ; yew're a verie bad person yew noe! leaving mie here to miss yew many many. bleahx! hehex. niwae, sorie dear over wat happened yesterdae. i began to realise dat im equally bad as yew wenever i become de PMS bytch. hahax. tanx a million for being dere to tolarate my mood swings. being patience wit mie eventho i noe i was venting my anger on yew. i carn help it. blame it all on PMS!! sorrie kayss dear. *yanaa hugs [[ezad]] tyte tyte and pecks hip lips softly. hehex. *
to.SyzNirah: wei minah! puaser agik bape arie jek shey!! biler mo buker luwar arh?? cepat cepat plan de date larh. den holla mie on my cell kays. taking caring sassy!!

honey bunch

2005-10-25T18:45:00.000+08:00

arlow people!! yew meet mie again. i noe im not supposed to be here ryte now but i dont want yew peeps to die from missing mie. hehex. nahh. actuallie im in de mood to do a calender check for de month of NOVEMBER and DECEMBER. well. lets see whus birthday's falls in either of dis two months ahead. and de events i haf been wayting for.

NOVEMBER
* 3rd Nov - Hari Raya. [[Ohwee!!]]
* 5th Nov - Mustafa's 22nd Bdae [[ happie bdae!! ]]
** 6th Nov - HONEY BUNCH turns 8teen. [[ heppie berfydae honey bunch!! dah 8teen shey org tu! mesti bully yg belom 8teen. *alahmak. im not even 7teen* nahh. but i dont tynk yew'll bully mie. bleahx! tekaire. miss ya many many. ]]
* 11th to 13th - famelee chalet at sentosa wit daddy's company. NOVEMBER DATE!! *wink*
* 21st Nov - Syz Sarina's 25th Bdae [[ happy bdae syz! dis is de ferst tyme yew're celebrating yewr bdae wit a new gelaran. hehex. dah jadi mama shey org tu. ((= ]]
* 25th Nov - Nana's seventeen Bdae. [[ happy bdae ghurlie!! best wishes for yewr o's. ]]
* 30th Nov - Darul's 18th Bdae. [[ happie bdae bro!! and i wish yew de verie best in yewr future. ]]

DECEMBER
/ 3rd Dec - Mafteem's 15th Bdae. [[ happie bdae awak!! all de best in everything yew do and wit HER. ((= ]]
/ 9th Dec - Ayah's 44th Bdae. [[ Selamat Hari Jadi!! Semoge dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan Rezeki. love ya!! ]]
// 22nd Dec - MY berfydae!! [[ finally im 7teen. hehex. ]]
/ 23rd Dec - Mama's 41st Bdae. [[ happy berfydae mama!! Semoge dipanjangkan usia dan dimurahkan rezeki!! love yew alot alot!! ]]
/ 26th Dec - Grannie's _ _ Berfydae. [[ alahmak! cucu sendiri tatawu nenek nyer umor. hehex. jgn marah. semoge usia nenek dipanjangkan dan murah rezeki nenek ye. ((= ]]
/ 26th Dec - Paktam's 18th Bdae. [[ happie bdae bro!! i wish yewluck in everything yew do!! ]]
/ 27th Dec - Jasmne's 17th Bdae. [[ happie bdae ghurl. finally we're 17 ryte. hehex. all de best aites for yewr future. ]]

dats it! it seems messy. but i dont gif a damn actuallie. hehex. sayonara people!! i wanna EAT in 1o minutes tyme!! yum yum. ((=

slieping beauty!

2005-10-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

*yawns* fuhh!~ i actuallie just got up from a five hours beauty sliep. and im styll sliepy!! slept ryte after cuming home from shopping wit my grannie. actuallie ryte peeps. im not supposed to be able to blog todae cos my mama haf decided to keep de keyboard awae from de computer as de younger kiddies will be having their eoy exams. but synce shes awae, i'll take dis opportunity to do a showt out!! and oso im feeling damn bored wen [[ezad]] is awae in Malaysia. haiz. and oso wayting for de tyme to BUKER!! ((=

to [[ezad]] - hey honey bunch! im missing yew so many many!! *sobx* niwae, yew were ryte to sae dat we've known each other for two months plus. but yew're wrong to sae dat we have not even met. cos de truth is, we haf met once before. de smyle smyle situation. hehex. budden dat was de once, ferst and last for now. =x cos we are styll both wayting for November. ((= yew noe i noe wart. hehex. kkays. since yew're now at Malaysia, yew enjoy yewrself and oso take gud kaire of yewrself aites. nakmo nottie nottie horhh!! hehex. i'll be missing yew. hugs and smuackz smuackz!!

i will be ryte here wayting for yew.

2005-10-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

now here i am wayting for [[ezad]] to come onlyne AGAIN. well. actuallie he was onlyne synce just now. budden his status was away cos he was watching a malay movie entitled 'puteri gunung ledang' while wayting for mie to finish cleaning my room. and wen i came back onlyne, he went offlyne. hmm. i guess he wanted to watch PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG with somepeace. *tengok nur farlyanna boley dier tanak. hehex*

well. nutink much reallie happened todae. and im actuallie not in de mood to blog. sorrie peeps. so, tyll nx tyme. taking caring peoples!!

showtie owtie

2005-10-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

heres some showtie owtie to some people i treasure!!

-> SIR Tengku Mohaizad: woah! SIR kape? dah SIR teros action arh nie? screw cadets jek keje dier! yew so de bad!! hmmph! ((= kkays. tanak kacau yew lagik arh dear. nanti yew maken stress. stress stress no gud for kiute guy lyk yew. hehex. just wanna sae dat i ngah miss yew many many larh!! and i'm patiently wayting for NOVEMBER!!! * yew noe i noe wart* ((=

-> Syz Sarina & Bro Khazin: congrats on yewr newborn baby boy!! im so glad dat Mohamad Khalish Bin Mohamad Khazin has been safely delivered on 191oo5 @ o4o6HRS. well. rest alot taw syz! and i'll be around if yew nid anytynk. ((= [sayang shey carn use de name syazril khalish. de name sedap taw! rase strawberrie. hehex. takpe takpe. i'll take de name for layter kayss. help yew use it. ((=]

heres de pix of baby Mohamad Khalish. . . aint he kiute!?

dammit!

2005-10-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

SHOWT OUT TO [[EZad]]

just wanna showt out to yew dat i MISS yew many many. hugs and smuackz.

den. . . my prepaid dah low. *sobx* so, if yew nid anitink, ringan2kan jari-jemari yew tu to ring up my humie aites. i'll answer de fone for sure. no worries. hehex. or yew can drop mie a text on my cellfone too. den i'll find a wae owt to reply to yewr texts.

1 more news dear! my kakak sedare dah admitted taw. her waterbag dah burst. and dat means she wud be giving birth either tonyte or tomoro. expecting a baby boi. carn wayte to see her baby!! mesti kiute cam yew. ((=

fairy.of.love

2005-10-17T22:13:00.000+08:00

you are the fairy of love! you love everything. you are kind of like a cupid ; you can create love. everyone loves you and you could never hate. you are one of the happiest fairy's. you can also never get your heart broken because no one would ever be able to do anything to break your heart.

well. it seems lyk dis quiz is NORT reallie true. cos de parts in GREEN are all not true. i get my heart broken VERIE easily.

s l o w l y

2005-10-16T10:27:00.000+08:00

wow!! tyme is passing so slowly wen hes buzie werking his ass off. dat leaves mie alone wayting for his texts to reach mie. but styll. its okay. i understand why hes doing all dis stuffs. its all for his wife and family. he wants to gif de best for his wife ; shower her wit everlasting love of a faithful husband [it cud be mie. hehex.] and oso wanting to gif his children a good life. he simply doesnt want dem to go thru de shit he did.

nvm baby. i understand. doncha werrie. im not soo demanding lyk HER. i noe my limitations wit yew. i too TRUST yew. so, lets TRUST each other and make dis journey of ours a meaningful and hopefully an everlasting one aites. insya'allah. ((=

before i forget. . . did i hear correctly? well. i heard dat someone is looking forward to asking mie owt. hmm. i carn wayte to spend de dae wit hym. i'll be wayting for de month NOVEMBER. *angelic smyle*

MY HONEY BABY EZAD JUZ BRING HAPPINESS TO MY LYFE!! [[thru yewr eyes, i saw de beauty of love and lyfe.]]

TIRED

2005-10-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

oh my gawd!! im so damn shagged at dis verie moment but i'll try my verie best to update aites. tho i noe it will not be long cos im real shagged!!

kkays. sleptover at syz sarina's place ytd. reached dere at around 8 plus. cab down from jurong east. slacked at her place by smsin honey baby. slept on de sofa bed onie at ard 2 a.m after finished msging hym.

woke up at ard 8:3oa.m. checked my handfone for msges and dere was one from honey baby. replied to dat msg den slept in de room. hehex. slept tyll about 2 pm. dat was wen honey baby msged again saying he just finished werk. den thot of asking hym to come down but he didnt want. not becos he tak sudi. but it was becos of a more special reason. dats meant for US to noe and yeww peeps to figure owt. hehex.

had pizza hut's food for breaking fast. i eat damn alot tyll i had trouble walking. hahax. dont worrie baby. im okay. hehex. cab back home from syz sarina's place wit syz athira. den de uncle whu was de driver took de long route and was so noisey. yak and yak and yak. stoopid he. wanted to pretend to be sleeping so dat he can stop yakking but was afraid he myte take mie to a different place. hehex. de uncle wanted to sent mie to my doorstep den syz athira sae "nevermind uncle. layter her boifren pick her up from under de voideck." den de uncle was mumbling to hymself. hahax. [step boifren take jek. padahal kiter kat maner, si dier kat maner.]

reached home den chatted wit baby in msn awhile. told hym abt de incident oso. den he sent mie de pix he took wen he buker owt wit his crazee fellow frens. den i realised dat we are wearing de same so-called beaded wristband. wart a coincidence. den he saed "oh reali? sejiwe mahh." yoikx. mcm kenal jek b werd sejiwe tu. hehex. sehati sejiwe larh baby. ((=

___SHOWT OUTS___
to HONEY BABY: i MISS yew!!! ((=

missing my sunshine

2005-10-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

okay!! im BORED wit nobody to chat wit. not even baby. cos he gotta do closing for todae. damn! owt of so many daes. and hes ending werk onlie at 11pm. so de layte! den need to gif hym anoder hour to reach home. omg!! haf a safe journey home aites honey baby.

well. i noe yew peeps must be cursing mie ryte now for not blogging in a proper entry dis few daes. and yew peeps hafta read de same old entry. hahax. juz dat i waszen in de mood larh. sorrie horhh. now i'll update larh kayss. i noe i noe yew guys and ghurls missed mie. yew dont hafta tell mie. ((=

hmm. nutink special happened todae actuallie. SLACKED de whole of todae browsing for new blogskins. found one Chemical Romance's Helena skin and intended to change it for baby but he saed he didnt reallie like it. so, left de old skin for hym and added just a PROPER tagboard. i repeat! PROPER!! hahax. so Jazmine & Cindy, lets FLOOD his tagboard!! ((=

ate two pieces of plain prata for breaking fast just now. den read de newpaper awhile ad went humie to accompany syz Athira whus alone. now here i am blogging in todaes entry. and im missing hym many many!! damn!~

hym + her

2005-10-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

benar. . .
kau adalah insan istimewa dalam hidupku.
setiap waktu. . .
akan terbayang betapa serinya wajahmu.
walaupun kau sering hadir dalam mimpiku. . .
aku harus mengaku bahawa cinta belum mengisi kamar hatiku.
biar apa jua kan terjadi. . .
ingatlah bahawa kau tetap insan teristimewa dalam hidupku ini.

copyright ; ezad + yana

damn! hes just so swiet! actuallie peeps. de above puisi is an effort of mie and hym. he was reading my puisi den he came up wit anoder piece and i edited to BETTA malay and finally dis was up. ((= COPYRIGHTED aites ppl!! be ORIGINAL!!

and he saed to mie "U are the angel tat makes me smile.. My troubles all free.. U remind me of the tyme wen i knew whu i was.. Life is worth living. U are my angel. These are not just sweet words! Its true. Whether it will last.. Tat god knows and U just make me look forward to things in life.... Especiaalli Love."

aww. hes just great!! fantastic!! and not to forget, superb!! hehex. well. sorrie ghurls. hes MYNE. i got hym ferst. dont even DREAM of having hym cos i'll never lose grip of hym. i repeat! NEVER!! bleahx.

mie

2005-10-08T15:13:00.000+08:00

___GLOBAL PERSONALITY TEST RESULT___

Stability: 30%
Orderliness: 43%
Extraversion: 56%

___WHAT THE PERCENTAGE MEANS___

Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

___TRAIT SNAPSHOTS___

paranoid tendencies, irritable, anxious, fidgety, dependent, worrying, emotionally sensitive, prone to regret, depressed, second guesses self, somewhat fragile, dislikes change, prefers organized to unpredictable, suspicious, phobic, craves attention, not a risk taker, low self control, very sensitive to criticism, unadventurous, does not make friends easily, defensive, obsessive, low self esteem.

___MY SAYS ABOUT THE TEST___

oh my gawd! most of it is true. or shud i sae all of it are damn true. especially de [trait snapshot] part. verie true. so baby. yew shud noe how im feeling ryte now.

seven.thingy

2005-10-07T09:30:00.000+08:00

aiyoyo!! now im being tagged by syz nirah to do dis thingy. wart goes around comes around ehk syz?? qwang3. kkays. now, my job is to ryte SEVEN stuffs about a certain topic. and dis is how it goes.

SEVEN THINGS I LYK DE MOST
[one] famelee
[two] hym
[three] handfone
[four] mp3
[five] computer
[six] my lyfe
[seven] besties

SEVEN MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM
[one] my bed
[two] our jigsaw
[three] my pillows
[four] my radio
[five] lights
[six] study table
[seven] my closet

SEVEN FACTS ABOUT FARLYANNA
[one] frenly
[two] bubbly
[three] sweet
[four] quiet
[five] his one and onlie baby
[six] carn live w/o hym
[seven] de devilic angel

SEVEN THINGS I WANNA DO BEFORE I DIE
[one] perform de 5 pillars of Islam
[two] travel around de werld
[three] world peace
[four] find happiness
[five] haf a stable job
[six] haf a famelee of my own
[seven] be sucessful

SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO
[one] slack
[two] sleep
[three] eat
[four] be independent
[five] yak on de fone for long hours
[six] sms non-stop
[seven] be MYSELF

SEVEN THINGS I CARN DO
[one] ride a bike
[two] drive a car
[three] carn do w/o HYM
[four] carn do w/o famelee
[five] carn do w/o my besties
[six] carn sleep after drinking coffee
[seven] carn be patient

SEVEN WERDS OFTEN SAED BY ME
[one] "huh?"
[two] "yew serious?"
[three] "layter arh"
[four] "miss ya honey baby" <--- to hym ONLIE
[five] "bored shey"
[six] "again?"
[seven] "mepek sak"

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES
[one] taufik batisah
[two] syed azmir
[three] fauzie laily
[four] hadi putra
[five] hatta ((=
[six] ben affleck
[seven] ashton
SEVEN PEEPS I WUD LOVE SEEING DOING DIS
[one] ghurl yana
[two] ghurl nawal
[three] ghurl nadera
[four] ghurl izzan
[five] bro mamanz
[six] ghurl fadilah
[seven] bro afiq

poetry side of mie

2005-10-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

aiyoh!! it seems like im into poetry tyll i never update my daily stuffs. hehex. sorie horhh. lyk i've saed, i can be a self centred person at tymes. *angelic smyle* kkays. i'll begin serious business.

fuyooh!~ todae was damn gweat! slacked during de FERST lesson by chatting in msn lyk nobody's business. hahax. *slacked and jobsheet was NOT done. keep it up larh yanaa.* hehex. sorie baby! i carn help it. i noe yew got mie to STARDY but instead i slacked. at least both starts wit de letter 's'. styll acceptable ryte? ((=

was given an EARLY release so headed for northpoint to haf lunch. i bought mixed candies and brought it back to skewl. and was LAYTE for de afternoon lesson. qwang3. listened to de lectue tyll about 2.4o den was released. EARLY again. ((=

took 811 wit afy to de interchange wen my handfone rang. it was a number i din noe so i thot of not answering but my heart saed it cud be important ; so i answered it. it was good dat i answered cos it was my honey baby calling. hehex. he called to sae dat he was slacking wit his frens as he just finished werk and waszen in de mood to go home. he den asked where was i. i told hym i was otw back home. and he saed " yew. layter malam we continue talking kayss. i going for terawey layter at nyte so after dat i'll ring yew up. make sure yew angkat fone taw." hahax. my famelee tak mamam org!! ((=

den he popped up de question about de calls! damn!~ i was speechless and guilt was filling my mind. *sobx* but takpe. we'll yak tonite aites. and asl yew takot sangat nak call umah i? my mama and ayah tak mkn org larh syg. lagi2 if de person is someone important and means EVERYTYNK to their daughter's life. chey!~ ((=

i so semangat-ly watched de show 'full circle' just to look at hatta!! de guy whu resembles ezad. hehex. so kiyoot!! *melting*

oraitey. i wanna do a few showt outs to some peeps.

[FERSTLY] to ezad: i miss yew honey baby! hehex. niwae, camat arie rayer!! ehk slh. its camat berpuaser. hehex.
[SECONDLY] to syz nirah: camat berpuaser to awakk too! yelah!~ kiter tawu romeo awak suwit. but tak sesuwit kiter nyerr kan. hehex. all de best for yewr eoy exams!!
[THIRDLY] to bro mun: all de best bro for yewr N. make sure yew giffit yewr best shot and make it thru to secondary 5 aites. ALL DE BEST!!
[LASTLY] to ALL MUSLIM PEEPS: camat berpuaser!!

hehex.

2005-10-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

How It All Started,
I Can Remember Like It was Yesterday.
We Started Out Total Strangers,
Getting To Know Each Other More Everyday.
My Problems Were Told To Yew,
Yew Listened And Help Mie Through.
Though Love For Us Could Never Be Found,
I Knew Yew Would Always Be Around.
Unnoticed Glimpses Were Secretly Given ,
Heartbeats Skipped And Stomach Turned.
I'd Never Thought This Is Ever Gonna Come True,
But Boy, I Think I'm Falling For Yew.

and honey baby,

Forgive My Eyes For Admiring Yew,
Yew Stole My Heart The Moment I Saw Yew.
Call Mie Crazee ; Call Mie Insane,
Each Tyme My Heart Beat It Mentions Yewr Name.

last but not least. . .

hugs and smuackz to yew, MY honey baby ; prynce charming ; de apple of my eyes ; my heartbeat ; de reason im living ; de one whu made mie who i am todae!! ohwee!!~ i just love yew to every bits and pieces. <3

chain letter?!

2005-10-03T19:26:00.000+08:00

oh gosh! i've been tagged by syz nadera wit a chain letter. how cud yew!!! hahax. but styll. its okay. at least i haf something to do while wayting for hym to wake up from his beauty sliep. ((= well. de chain letter requires mie to ryte THREE things about mie. and dis is how it goes.

[one] im deeply in lurvee wit MY prynce charming.
[two] i can be a self centred person at tymes.
[three] imma sensitive yet strong sophisticated independent laydee.

oraitey! im done wit it. and to keep it going, im gonna pass it to three other peeps. and de lucky ones are. . .
1. Syz Nirah,
2. Syz Eqa &
3. Syz Nadirah.

it seems like my ever loveable syztahs are de lucky ones. hehex. no offence darlaz!! so, do keep de chain going aites. enjoy!~ [and baby. doncha dare tynk yew dint cross my mynd wen i was tynking of whu shud be de lucky ones. well. yew're not one of de lucky ones cos i noe dat yewr laptop is down so yew wont be doing it any soon. so, nx tyme perhaps aites.]

a p o l o g y

2005-10-03T06:52:00.000+08:00

dis is a public apology from nur farlyanna to tengku mohaizad for making hym wayte for her to call. which in de end was a waste of tyme cos nur farlyannna had fallen asleep even before she was able to fulfill her promise of calling hym. *feeling guilty*

im sorrie honey baby. i din meant to make yew wayte. i'll make it up to yew aites. so so sorie. de apology comes from de bottom of my heart. as for now, i just gotta pray hard dat my apology will be accepted. ((= hugz! smuackss.

shits happen

2005-10-02T01:38:00.000+08:00

haix. it seems lyk all i've been doing for de past few daes is dae-dream of yew and wonder bowt us. hmm. i wonder! do i ever cross yewr mind wen yew oways crosses myne? i guess yew never tynk of mie. even wen i've tried so hard to keep myself buzie sho dat i can try not to tynk of yew so much. and did so much but still, de face on yewr smyle oways crosses my mind and sumtymes even bring tears to my eyes! i styll wonder if it was my fault dat tyll tdae yew're keeping quiet. keeping to yewrself! gosh! it seems lyk life is reallie unfair. it pains mie lyk hell. i juz wanna be appreciated. i'm always treated like a rebound to guys. always taken as a rebound. wen dey nid mie, dey'd be wit their "i lurfeeu"'s. and wen wen i don't meet to their expectations, i get dumped, treated like a doll. i'm human too. i too haf feelings!

i noe it was MY fault. but why didja let jealousy ruin our frenship? i hate to do dis here. cos its in public. but anything for love. well. de truth is, i haf a confession to make. and dat is to tell yew dat im crazily in lurfee wit yew! i just carn get yew out of my mind! my feelings for yew has yet to change. my heart is styll beating for yew. and i swear its onlie yew. yew can tear open my heart to dig owt de truth. well, yew do noe how much pain f a r h a n and r a m d a n has brought to my lyfe! i noe lurfee can never be forced but i seriously nid yew in my lyfe to guide mie thru! i've had enuff sufferings. why are yew doing dis to me? i carn seem to let yew go! yew're just a part of mie which i find hard to let go! please gimme a call to let mie noe dat yew feel de same. please don't leave mie hanging in de air. i reallie nid yew in my lyfe. i noe yew noe it too. please. i'm on my knees honey baby!

disney character

2005-09-30T10:28:00.000+08:00

you are Belle a girl who would do anything for her
family and doesn't care about a mans outer
beauty but his inner while you ourself are
beautiful kind and wanted by all men

Which Disney Princess are You?(pics)
brought to you by

haix.

2005-09-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

baby. . . must we always be arguing each and every nyte? and it all ends up wit mie having tears rolling down my cheek. hmm. dont tynk dat i went off just now cos i was trying to run awae from problems. it was just dat i carn accept wart yew saed yesterdae. i tak salahkan yew for getting jealous. cos i pon understand dat 'cemburu tande sayang'. tapi, de compliment i gaf khai was onlie saed ONCE taw. i tak besar2kan de topic. i din repeatedly puji hym. and i even apologised to yew wen yew told mie dat yew were feeling jealous.

de question dat is in my mind at dis verie moment in tyme is "why now?" padahal we talked about khai two daes ago and all of a sudden, yew're bringing it up again. why baby? why? and oso, tetibe yew start saying about third party sumer. just wart is wrong? haix. i noe dat OUR confidence are beginning to drop slowly as daes passes by us. but i haf faith in yew and trust dat yew are will be dere at de finishing lyne and yew're not going to hurt mie. im nort gonna rush things. slow and steady.

baby boi. . . yew gotta trust mie. im not here to hurt yew again. i noe wart yew went thru and i wanna be de one whu heals de heart of yewrs. i wanna be dere for yew to help yew trust in de werd 'love' all over again. im done wit my speech for todae. and baby. . . i promise yew dat no matter wart happen, my heart will styll be beating for yew. before and tyll forever. and nutynk is ever gonna affect and be able to change de fact. (= hugz & smuacks.

poem.

2005-09-29T10:43:00.000+08:00

out of my window i can see,
snowflakes falling from above.
de silence of falling snow,
makes mie tynk of sumone i lurvee.

sumone whu is so dear to mie,
but our lurvee is silent too.
i wud lyk to tell de whole werld,
how much yew mean to mie.

yew opened da door to my heart,
den tossed awae de key.
now uew're always in my heart,
and forever yew will be.

my lurvee for yew keeps growing,
how i wish i cud be wif yew.
but, i guess dese precious memories,
fer mie will haf to do.

yew are on my mind every dae.
my nytes are filled wif sorrows.
but i'll juz keep hoping and praying,
dat dere will be a brighter tomoro.

* copyright` [ nur farlyanna ]]

l o v e

2005-09-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

how simpler can my lyfe ever get now dat i haf yew here wit mie ;
how i cherish each and every breath of myne,
how i crave de light & laughter yew haf given to mie.
i haf fallen in lurfeee without taking a step ;
fallen into de sweetest of dreams,
till im wishing dat no one will wake me up.
de simplest gesture wraps itself around my heart,
where i will hold it forever.

each time we say "goodbye",
a part of mie weeps.
though i noe it is nort forever,
to my aching soul it is an eternity.
i see my happiness shine in yewr eyes ;
and my heart seems to be skiping another beat each tyme we held each other close,
it feels like im in heaven noeing how sweet life is to be yewrs.

never cud i imagine my lyfe without yew ;
dey noe nutink of de loneliness before yew,
nutink of de empty tears i cried day after day.
"how did yew do it?" ;
i asked myself,
"how did yew banish de fear and de darkness dat was in mie?".
yew haf made mie see dat nutink is bad ;
dat i am strong and worthy of happiness,
yew haf saved mie from myself.
everyday i wake up and smyle to myself ;
knowing yew are wayting for mie,
knowing yew carn wait to see mie.
how wud i go on wit lyfe if yew were not dere to hold mie up ;
to bless mie wit yewr love and light?
no werd cud simply explain how glad i am to find yew.
my lyfe is now complete ;
it has a home,
in yewr heart is where it will always stay.

[[ezad]]

2005-09-27T09:58:00.000+08:00

baby. . . i've never expected much from yew. it doesnt reallie matter how close yew are to whoever. as long as yew're happie wit who yew wanna be wit or wart yew wanna do ; im happie too. to be frank, it makes mie happie seeing yew being happie.

de truth is. . . yeah! yew're de one and onlie guy whu makes my heart beat faster and slower at de same tyme. yew donch hafta worrie about mie running awae from yew. yew're de onlie one i haf as my fren who understands all my needs since before & till forever. [other den my mama] and nutink will ever affect or change dat fact.

well. if yew dont treat mie as wat i treat yew as, i dont mind. i wont let my ego get into mie. i hafta admit dat i do need ya. cos yew're dat someone whom i wanna share everyting from head to toe about mie with!!

de point is. . . dont tynk too much. . . and learn how to appreciate warteva yew've received. . . im trying my verie best to please yew. . . to be de ideal fren. but it seems dat my "roller coaster rides of emotion, jealousy & ego" has made yew frustrated. i donch noe how yew want mie to be or wart yew want mie to do. tell mie please. . . i want to resolve it. i kaire. cos i wanna build de frenship of ours till eternity. . cherishing it & appreciating it every moment now & forever.

well baby. . . i noe im no one to stop yew from remembering yewr past. but de feeling of insecurity is making mie feel lyk im being used as a rebound for yew to forget wiwi. i noe yew never wud treat mie as a rebound but im just scared! i noe i gotta trust yew. its not dat i dont trust yew taw. i do trust yew. but i guess my feelings are playing wit my mind.

well. sorrie kays baby if yew felt offended wit mie rytting dis. but i was just pouring owt wart i haf been keeping in dis porcelain heart of myne. but remember dat no matter wat happen, yew will aways haf a special place in my heart. <3

career in de future. . .

2005-09-26T07:41:00.000+08:00

Your Career Type: Social.

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.

Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and
solving social problems.

You would make an excellent: - Counselor - Dental Hygienist
- Librarian - Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
- Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher

The worst career options for your are realistic careers,
like - truck driver - farmer.

key to my heart

2005-09-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

i did a quiz entitled 'the key to your heart.' and dis was how i did!
well baby! yew shud be proud of mie taw. look at how positive de
answers are. hehex

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold
as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative
and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think
you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure
and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that
looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and
morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted...
though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for.
You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
You're feeling self centered too.

heres de link to de page if any of yew peeps are interested in
trying owt de quiz! *i noe baby wud* hehex.
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

s u n s h i n e !

2005-09-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

sunshine!
i can call yew my baby boy,
yew can call mie yewr baby girl.
maybe we can spend some time ;
i can be yewr sunshine!

coz itz yew and mie ;
and all of de people with nothing to do,
nothing to prove.
and itz yew and mie ;
and all of de people,
and I donoe why, i carn keep my eyes off of yew!

bila ku sedari diri disayangi,
langkah kaki ini semakin berani.
bila terkeliru ku ucap namamu,
terasa diriku kembali dipandu.

tak tertahan menanggung rindu,
disaat kau berjauhan dariku.
bayangmu selalu datang menjelma,
membuat teguhnya cintaku.

i do cherish yew ;
for the rest of my life,
yew don't hafta think twice.
i will love yew still ;
from de depths of my soul,
it's beyond my control.
i've waited so long to say this to you ;
if yew're asking do i love yew dis much,
I DO!!

above are lines of de few songs which has been playing thru my mind de whole of todae. tyme is passing so slowly & missing hym is killing mie!! aarrgghh!! i wanna break down and cry again. but it seems lyk my tears are all dried up. its simply becos i haf been crying just to put myself to sleep for de past 2 daes! haix. *yew dont hafta feel sorrie baby. i guess its just mie whus being too sensitive dis few daes*

*praying hard* im praying hard dat yew'll haf a safe jouney back aites. hope to hear yewr voice soon! and i miss yewr hugss & smuakczz!!!

hmm.

2005-09-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

skewl todae made mie a certified slacker! hehex. was 15 minutes layte for lesson and managed to get awae wit it. hahax. slacked in class all de wae by chatting in msn using web messenger. chatted wit zart cos he absent hymself from skewl just now. chat from de beginning of lesson tyll de end. hehex.

finally! it was tyme to go home. i trained home wit afy. thot of meeting syz nirah to haf lunch wit her but unfortunately she has been booked. but styll. takpe syz. we go next week aites. bkn 2 by 2 taw. tapi, up siket arh! 4 by 4 kayss. *wink*

was in de train heading towards clementi wen suddenly my handfone vibrated. thot it was my mama asking to meet her somewhere or wat. quickly took out my fone from my pocket and soon realised dat it was my sweetheart calling. he called to sae dat he was leaving for yishun oreadi. and ubin, here he comes AGAIN! haix. how i wish i cud haf hym right here wit mie.

was lying on de bed upon reaching home wen i fell asleep. hehex. tak sempat mandi dah tido. qwang3. was sleeping wen my fone vibrated AGAIN. and sweetheart called AGAIN. got hym to call my cribxy. he made dat verie last call specially just to hear my voice before entering de jungle which definitely has no reception. )=

aww. how swiet can dat be. effort appreciated sweetheart! muacks!! and darling dearie! just wanna tell yew dat yew're gonna be missed by yewr baby here! its confermed dat im gonna miss so so badly dat i dont tynk any werds can ever describe de feeling in mie. [tak tertahan menaggung rindu di saat kau berjauhan dariku.] well. just promise mie dat yew'll take EXTRA kaire of yewrself wen yew're dere kays. and i promise yew dat NO shits will be done behind yewr back wen yew're awae . i will NEVER stop tynking of yew and no matter how far apart we may be physically, in spirit we are always together!! *im YEWRS and yew're MYNE* hugzz!! smuackss!!!

i love yew baby!

2005-09-22T03:22:00.000+08:00

do yew remember de promise i made to yew?
when de flowers were covered wit murnyng dews.
i promised to lurfee yew forever and a dae,
and never shall i leave yew alone and walk away.

do you noe dat my porcelain heart has been broken more den once before?
and it decided to shut its werld owt by shutting its doors.
but yew made mie trust in lurfee again,
so, i decided to be brave to endure de pain.

im glad dat i took de leap of faith,
for i see rainbows across de sky everydae.
lyk de enchanting scenery of de werld after a bout of rain,
now hope is carried in every rice grain.

i now shall renew my vow,
i tell yew now.
dat i lurfee yew wit everything i haf and all,
regardless of yewr imperfections and flaws.

honey!!

2005-09-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

im all about loving yew!!

yew're my HONEYBUNCH, SUGARPLUM,
PUMPY-UMPY-UMPKIN, yew're my SWEETIE PIE.
yew're my CUPPYCAKE, GUMDROP,
SNOOGUMS-BOOGUMS, yew're de APPLE OF MY EYES.
and i LURFEE yew so and i WANT yew to noe,
dat i'll ALWAYS be RIGHT here.
and i LURFEE to sing SWEET songs to yew,
because YEW are so DEAR!! muackzz!!!

*speechless* oh my gawd! he was so gorgeous even in his werking uniform. i guess 'speechless' was de werd to describe my feeling just now wen our eyes met. de sparkle in his eyes reallie makes my heart skip a beat. and de smyle he threw to mie! wow! it simply melts my heart!

hehex. if yew peeps wanna noe whu is de he i haf been complimenting on, he is MY sayang!! ohwee!! im feeling so happie!! i guess i will be having an early nyte tonyte. so can dream of hym. hehex. sorie peeps. niwae, ayang step innocent jek wit yewr spects on. hehex. but yew look great wit those spects on. i lyk!! and, yewr mama is so hot! *tengok arh mama sape. kan yang* ((=

im so touched by my sayang! early in de murnyng dah make my dae! i love yew loads!! "im hapi 2 sae my heart wudnt beat 4 her anymore coz i got sumone else and it is u." dat were his exact werds saed to mie. well sayang, i can tell dat yew reallie haf gotten over her but promise mie dat de beat of yewr heart will be for mie and onlie mie!! hugs! <3

B I A T C H !

2005-09-19T08:25:00.000+08:00

why carn yew just mind yewr own freaking business?? and why de hell are yew toking behind other peoples back?? iszit just becos she is now wit yewr ex. hahaha!! it seems like yew just carn accept de fact dat yew've been dumped! WART RUBBISH!! nak bobal, bobal depan2 arh! aper mo blakang2 sak? takot?? haiz!! i wonder why dis type of girls styll exist in dis tiny werld of Singapore.

and for yewr information, yew're NOBODY to judge hym. he's just HYM. even if yew're not satisfied wit hym becos of wart he did to yew, yew styll gotta accept de fact and just move on larh! NO point dwelling on de past!! but maybe yew kinda deserves dat. NOBODY asked yew to fall for hym. and yew were de one who was so stoopid to just over-express yewr lurfee for hym. and i mean, really OVER-expressed. i just dont understand these people anymore. kinda retarded i guess. *rolls eyes*

before saying about other people, maybe yew shud reflect on yewrself ferst larh ghurl. why must yew just jump to conclusion and accused people anyhow? i reallie despise such people. dont ever assume and accuse anyone about anything dat YEW JUST HAVE NO CLUE ABOUT! by all means, if yew wanna hate mie. HATE MIE LARH!. i dont give a damn! at least i noe wat im doing!! i reallie tynk dat these people do really need reality checks for demselfs. but wayte! maybe dey're just immature. or dey haf never experienced such things before. seriously, i've got to sae to dis to yew, "WATDEVA!!" yew tynk dat yew noe alot. wen de truth is yew noe NUTINK!!

well. lyfe's just too complicated. just waddehell is happening to dis werld??!! oh yeah. she carn be de biatch. just look at her! so immature!! ooppss. i guess she just hafta realize sumthings in the world are meant to be accepted. especially if it involes fate not wanting a coulpe to be togeder! she talks and walk as if she's de better one. but guess wart! yew're de loser here. carn even accept FACTS! get the point dere? and im not trying to be a big arse but i just want yew to realize dat yew aren't any better than any others who gossips too.GOSH!

to be frank, im not reallie anyone bad at all. but if yew feel dat yew're de one im talking about in today's post then im glad dat yew read this post and felt guilty! im not trying to create any arguement between anyone. it's just some reality check for yew. URGH. dis is MY blog so i ryte WATDEVA i feel lyke rytting and if yew dont lyk it, haf de honour to LEAVE!! gosh! i won't elaborate anymore. i might as well end it here. take kaire peeps!

missing hym

2005-09-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

im missing hym! *sobx* im missing baby so so badly! and deres is styll a bad piece of news for mie. and dat is he will be going away for a 3 daes 2 nytes camp at ubin wit 2 of his besties dis cuming Fridae. damn! kalau boley memang tanak let hym go shey!! but i noe he needs tyme awae wit his frens to enjoy. but baby! please take extra kaire of yewrself kays. i dowan yew to come back injured or anytink lyk dat. and remember, i will always be tynking of yew! hugz and smuacks!!

todae was okay. went for madrasah in de murnyng. had exams. exam starts at 8 but i came at 9. hehex. *yanaa is forever layte* i was lucky cos my name haszen been called yet. my turn came onlie at 1o. had to wayte 1 hour. damn! took de exam and class was dismissed.

reached home, watched Anugerah and had breakfast. slacked and changed blogskin AGAIN. hehex. was changing de blogskin wen suddenlie on my handfone was shown ' New Messages ; h y m ; read now?' i was so shocked to read dat he just woke up. and de tyme was 2 in de aftrnoon. gosh!

went to Clementi Bata wit Syz Athira to get herself a new skewl shoe. head for Sweet Talk after going to Bata. Syz bought ice blended honeydew while i had ice blnded blue coral. took bus number 14 home and slacked while wayting for bro to get ready. de whole famelee sent bro to his camp and we headed to west coast to haf dinner. i had mee siam and drank watermelon juice.

BABY IS SO SWEET! WAS EATING DEN HE MSG SAYING HE GOT SOMETYNK VERIE IMPORTANT TO TELL MIE. I THOT IT WAS WART DEN HE SAED "i've got to tell yew dat... I MISS YEW!!" aww. dats so swiet of hym. slalunyer i'll be de one saying i miss hym and he'll sae dat im being missed too. sheesh! he reallie noes how to make mie smyle! tanx baby for making mie smyle!!

now here i am blogging in todaes entry!! kkays. i wanna haf a gud sleep. to baby! gud nyte! hugz & smuackz! and HAPPIE BERFDAY MIZIE!!!

shagged!

2005-09-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

damn im shagged! slept onlie at 2 in de murnyng ytd cos was sms-ing hym. he just cudnt shut his eyes close so i felt dat de least i cud do was to be dere for hym. lurfee requires SACRIFICE and i was sacrificing my sliep just for hym. aww. so swiet. hehex.

skewl was okay. layte for 1 hour. lesson was supposed to start at 8 and i thot it was 9, so i came at 8:55 in de murnyng. hehex. did de jobsheets while in class. and lesson ended at 11:oo. msged hym asking wat he was doing and he said dat he was getting ready for fridae prayers and will be going for his ncc training at northland sec. after dat *terkejot kejap dgr. tak penah2 date a guy yg smangat gi smayang. lagik2 smayang jumaat. kalau cabot smayang ader larh. hahax.* den i trained home alone but lucky he was dere to msg to keep mie company.

placed my uniform and sweater at hume den went down to clementi to meet up wit syz nirah. met her at macdonalds toilet and we trained down to boon lay and i accompanied her home. she got changed while i went to take a look at my half done shoe done by mun and i;ve got to sae dat it looks great! den it was her turn to accompany mie. she accompanied mie to j.p to clear up some thingy and we went to de alteration shop to alter bro's jeans but it wont be ready tyll tomoro. so, we decided to cancel de whole thingy and just get auntie ani to do de alterings.

slacked at her place while wayting for bro to book out from camp cos auntie ani needs hym dere to take de exact measurements for de alterations. bro reached at about 5:3o and auntie ani took de required measurements and she went to do her job.

left boon lay onlie at 7 and trained back to grannie's place. watched s-league and suddenlie a player named TENGKU MUSYAHAD caught my attention. i quickly smsed hym to ask wat is his bro's name. cos i thot tengku musyahad is his bro but i was wrong. hahax. his bro is TENGKU MOZAID. and both of dem were not born to be soccer players. hahax.

went to tanjong pagar railway foodcourt to haf dinner wit my famelee. dey ate and ate and ate. while i msged and msged and msged. ask hym if its okay if i were to take up motor license and he lectured mie on it. but it was for good tho. loved ones sumer kluwar. ahackx. den bro sounded to go to mustafa centre cos he needed some camp stuffs so we went next to mustafa. told hym abt it and he told me to be extra kaireful dere. aww. he's soo swiet and caring. tanx baby!! yew reallie noe how to make my dae.

SHOUT OWTS
-> hym: tanx again baby! i miss yew! hugz and smuackz!!

-> syz nirah: i enjoied myself tadie! hehex. see ya around!

ohwee!

2005-09-15T19:22:00.000+08:00

todae was great. skipped assembly in de murnyng cos i overslept. hehex. went for english lesson. played some hangman games during de lessons. and studied about LEADERSHIP. den had a test on it. after lesson, Mrs Ng suddenly asked me, "how come yew din tell mie dat yew dated a student of mine from cm1b before?" i was so shocked! i kept denying it but she saed "yew carn lie to mie yanaa." she kept smyling so i too just smyled my wae owt of class. but its history aitex cher. i'm beginning a new chapter of my lyfe wit hym. and im so missing hym!! *sobx*

had theory lesson next and it was so kewl. suddenly so motivated to study. hahax. listened to de lecture for two hours ; absorbing all de infos on an empty stomach wayting for de tyme to haf lunch. and finally it was tyme to haf our lunch! hehex. head for 7-eleven wit christina, randell and yi xiang. all of us bought chicken briyani and big gulp. we den headed for de nearest void deck to eat up our food and slack around.

left de void deck at ard 12.5o and walked back to skewl. *dah makan kene exercise mahh* ((= went for mr. cham's practical lesson. and did 2 practical jobs cos i was absent for one of it. was dismissed 15 minutes earlier. and had to run in de rain. damn! and tynking how romantic it wud be if he was by my side and dere we are walking in de rain. awww. so swiet. hahax.

well. here i am slacking at home letting tyme pass. wayting for hym to call. dats if he styll smangat to cos i noe he had a long dae at werk just now. i hope yew do aites baby. niwae, congrats baby! i knew yew cud pass all yewr papers. eventho its not wit flying colours, at least yew passed. im so happie for yew. miss ya. hugs and smuaacckz!

not mie!

2005-09-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

gosh! i guess todae is just NOT my dae. had a GUD talk wit hym. abt US. and im not reallie in de mood. so, todae is showt out dae! just gonna do some shout owt.

->hym: so sorrie for blowing up on yew. i din mean to. anger tak terkawal and yew came at de wrong tyming. *cian dier tak bersalah pon kene marah* hehex. i'll make it up to yew kays. tyll we meet up. tekaire. miss ya baby. smuackz. [and its gud to hear yew got yewr new laptop. senang siket nak communicate.]

->syz nirah: yewr starbucks treat will come aites. one fine dae. no worries. janji tetap janji. taking lotsa kaire. ((=

how swiet

2005-09-12T07:51:00.000+08:00

"baby..., i will never leave u. ; i wont b going anywhere or to another gerl. ; taat dan setia. ; i want u to remember tis. ; though im bz wit werk or frens, u will never fade from my heart. NVR!"

aww. dats so swiet of yew dear. i must say dat imma very lucky ghurl to haf someone lyk yew. because yew EXIST, i LIVED. i just cant imagine wat my life wud be lyk now if yew hadnt entered de door to my heart. yew taught mie alot of things dear. and i thank yew for dat.

yew were de one whu thot mie de real meaning of love and life,
yew too, were de one whom without fail will draw a smile on my face.
yew're de onlie one dat fills my head every hour and every dae,
and i thank God for giving mie a chance to be loved by someone lyk yew!

dear, we'll overcome all de obstacles of lyfe together aites. i promise yew dat no matter wat happen, i'll never let yew go! i'll love yew tyll de end of tyme wit everything i haf and all regardless of yewr imperfections and flaws. i promise yew!

showt outs

2005-09-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

ola people! finally yew guys meet mie again after i dissapeared for some tymes. well. i noe dat im being missed. dats why i took de decision to blog. hehex. yew'd be lying if yew saed yew didnt miss mie. *bleahx* hahax. kkays. i shall stop crapping. de truth is im in just to do a shout owt to an important someone in my lyfe. and here i go!

-> hym [ de light in my lyfe]: ferst of all, i'd lyk to shout owt to yew dat "I MISS YEW DARLING DEARIE". doncha dare tynk dat no one misses yew kays dear. yew're being missed by MIE every hour of every day!! ((= and no one else is supposed to miss yew more den i do! sorie ghurls. hes de light in my lyfe and im his! he's always in my heart and im in his! ohwee! well dear, i just wanna sae tanx for being dere for mie thru my daes of depressions. tolerating my mood swings. standing by mie and oways being dere to make my dae and make mie smyle. well. eventho we haf had a few arguments, just remember dat yew're de onlie one whu fills my head 24 hours, seven daes a week. and no matter wat happen, i promise yew dat yew will be my one and onlie. now and forever. tekaire dear. i miss yew!! *hugs*

back!

2005-09-03T12:09:00.000+08:00

ola loved ones! finally im back after being m.i.a for abt a week or so. well, i do haf my own reasons for being awae. syz nirah shud noe. ryte syz! dah tawu diam2 ehk. hehex. and for yewr info peeps, i myte not be blogging everydae like wat i did in de past. so, sorrie ehk if yew guys oways hafta read de same old entry. *angelic smyle*

todae actuallie passed like de rest of de daes. juz dat i hadta wake up extra early to meet up wit syz nirah. i badly needed to change back my fone cos i was suffering badly trying to get use to using her fone! met her at 7.1o at clementi mrt station. exchanged fones back den i trained down to skewl. met randell and afy at yishun mrt station. saw dan n danial dere too. missed de bus dat dan took and ikal missed de bus dat i took. how coincidence can dat get.

in skewl as usual ; did jobsheets. and suddenlie received a call from syz nawal. she saed dat she needed an m4 book. so borrowed her myne den dan plak dtg. *sorie ehk cudnt borrow yew myne. dah on loan. ((=* is borrowed dan his book.

finally 11a.m came and it was tyme to go home. went back wit randell and yi xiang. had to run in de rain cos none of us had an umbrella. accompanied randell to power 9 to buy a ear stud. and i trained down to city hall to meet zackie. to grab de graffiti drawing of my name dat he drew for me. janji nadia nak meet kol 12.15p.m kat clementi but kol 12.3o plus den i reach. *sorie ghurl. din mean to make yew wayte.* took 189 to kent ridge den met up wit mdm tsuei n ms fahizah. din tok much cos dey were buzie. went to clementi to buy bubble tea den terserempak ngan syz nirah. *syz! kiter dah kalahkan mataer ehk. arie2 mesti see each other. hahax. *

reached home den msg ezad. budden dere waszen any reply. guess he was buzie at dat moment. fell asleep while wayting for his reply. woke up from my sleep and saw dat i had 1 MISSED CALL n 1 NEW MESSAGE. and de missed call was from ezad. sorie ehk din answer yewr call. i was in dreamland ; dreaming of yew! hehex.

shout out to hym

2005-08-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

* to hym *
tanx fer acting as my shadow ; guiding mie thru dis complicated werld of myne.

giving mie faith & being my pillar of strength ; helping mie regain my self-confidence.

being dere for mie ; thru my worst ever roller coaster ride of emotions.

never cud i imagine my lyfe without yew ; yew're de meaning of my lyfe.

my heart beats onlie for yew ; yew are my onlie one.

i'll lurfee yew tyll de end of tyme and never will i let yew go.

dis is a promise made from mie to yew ;

dis yew shud noe.

townie! here i come!

2005-08-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

went town todae wit my darling syz nirah. fetched her from her place den we trained down to orchard. and wen ngah wayting for de train den dis guy gaf us one kind nyer look but we both just buwat bodoh. and wen ngah dlm train, ngah feeling mendak so decided to call khai's handfone. using syz nirah's fone. den asked hym "yew kat ne?" his answer was "dlm train kat lakeside" anjat gegerl dgr cos at dat moment, i was oso at lakeside. den asked "yew nak gi maner shey?" den he jwb "umah tarmizie". eventually syz nirah heard it den she turned her head and de guy smyled. waduhh! coincidence benar we are in de SAME train, SAME cabin & SAME row. hmm.

headed to borders to redeem de roxy stuff but unfortunately de stuffs has ran owt. so we headed for starbucks. it was syz nirah's treat. *machey ehk awak! next tyme kiter blanje awak plak kiex.* den dere was dis hensem abg whu came in. we thot he wanted to buy de drinks den boley ajak dier join kiter skali. hehex. budden he headed for de kitchen. alahmak! he keje situ dahh! hahax.

den walked to centrepoint and jln2 kejap. den trained home. balek aru nak celyp den mama sae we heading for bibiq's humie. so, wayted for everyone to siap den went over to bibq's place. was dere tyll ard 1o.3o de took 147 home. finally im home! home swiet home! kkiex. im outta here to go to dreamland! before dat, heres a few showt outs to some peeps.

-> syz nirah: tanx ya for de company. had a great tyme!must do it more often. [[and. amalkan slalu buwat keje mcm gitu lagik! *wink*]]

-> fisz [nirah's baby boi]: yew betta take gud kaire of my syz ehk! and yew two make sucha compatible couple.*tak jeles!* hehex.

_______

2005-08-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

oh well. im just not in de mood to blog in todae's entry. but i tynk im just gonna do a shout owt to some peeps owt dere. so dis is how it goes.

-> tanaka muheizad: buzie sgt ke abg ezad kiter nie? hmm. i guess yew're just tired from de campings, studying, werking and stuff. takpe! kiter understand. but yewr health oso must take kaire horhh. dont keep yewself buzie untyll yewr health is not well maintained. hope to hear from yew soon aites. so long and good night.

-> zulkarnain: hey. i noe im styll haunting yewr mind. i din mean to make yew suffer. but i just dont tynk dat now is a good tyme for us to be patching things back. cos i currently do haf someone in mynd. so i hope yew can understand ya. i dont mind if yew styll wanna wayte for mie. but watdeva it is, just remember dat life has to go on no matter wat happen. tyll den. take kaire dude!

-> randy: to yew too randy. i gotta sae de same werds i told zulkarnain. i seriously haf no intention of making yew suffer by wayting for mie. but i just donch wanna force myself into a relationship wen i noe dat my heart has some other guy's name. im reallie sorie dude!

-> syz nirah: darla! go talk to yewr mama abt tomoro larh! she wont eat yew up ryte! yew tell her abit2 den tomoro i pick yew up. dari depan pintu agik! mane mo dpt huh org camnie? chey. hahax. see yew tomoro kiex. make sure horhh!!

haiz!

2005-08-25T19:22:00.000+08:00

hmm. i guess todae passed juz lyk de rest of de dae. nutink special happened. woke up early i de murnyng to fix breakfast. on de comp at ard 9 and tag on ezad's blog. eventho i noe de fact is dat he's not back yet from his camp. kill tyme. hehex. i assumed he came back at 1o plus cos dat was de tyme he tagged at my bloggy.

was layte for my phase test just now. layte for abt 3o minutes. hahax. sorie mr cham. din mean to make yew wayte. *angelic smyle* took my test den slack for awhile in class and left onie at 3. trained down to clementi to meet mama. saw fendy in de train. and saw mun at clementi mrt station nyer platform. [due2 mat sombong. in de werld of their own] (= and not to forget, my gorgeous syz nirah!

met mama at big bookshop den went to polyclinic cos mama wanted to buy panadols and finally went to grab sumtynk to eat at de coffeeshop. i was walking behind mama and infront of dis group of abgs and dey sho mepek. i was walking and dey went "de wae she sways her hips! gorgeous!" den i turned and dey smyled and satu mintak number. too bad boys. my mama is ard. nx tyme maybe. hahax. tak dpt arh!

reached home den tagged on ezad's blog again and finally. here i am typing todae's entry! enjoy peeps.

[[showt outs]]
-> taNaka muhEizad : tanx ya for being dere for mie ; being my pillar of strength despite de fact dat we barely even noe each other. but it seems lyk we are in need of each other to continue wit our lyfes. i do agree dat dis lyfe of ours is full of obstacles. and i noe dat de future will styll be bumpy. but wit yew around, i do haf faith dat i can overcome all de bumps of lyfes. yew sure haf taught mie alot of lessons in lyfe. yew haf done yewr part by being dere for mie and now i wanna be dere for yew too. yew haf managed to draw a smile on my face lyk no other guys cud do. and for dat, i too wanna be de reason for de smyle on yewr face. take kaire aites. so long and gud nyte!

tanx!

2005-08-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

a showt out to muhammad ramdan
- to de guy who was once myne! tanx for everytink ya! i've made up my mind. and dat is, im giving up on yew! its just pointless for mie to be hanging on. tynking dat yew will be mine again one dae. wen de fact is yew haf oreadi found my replacement. i've had enuff of hoping for yew to return. its making mie feel so helpless. i did my part to keep our relationship going. but wat do i get in return? NUTINK! being nice to yew all dis while is reallie no use! yew just hurt mie even more. im reallie gonna let yew go now. for yewr information, i dont need yew anymore and i never did! keep dat in mynd! im gonna move on wit lyfe and pretend i never knew yew. no matter hard it wud be! cos i noe dere'd be someone whu wud guide mie thru dis. i noe he'd be dere for mie thru thick and thin. and my feelings tell mie dat he 's de one i've been wayting for all my lyfe and im proud to sae dat he completes mie! *hugs*

d a n

2005-08-22T08:10:00.000+08:00

wenever lyfe drifts yew awae from mie,
i carn help but cry.
yew're a part of mie and without yew,
lyfe is no more den a desperate sigh.

dey sae "lurfee come and go",
but to dat i disagree.
so take my hand and never let it go.
wit all my heart, i love yew so.

i was born to meet you. tell me...

can i have this kiss forever?

holidae!

2005-08-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

now i dont hafta sliep early. cos my holidae has begun! ohwee!!

todae went for madrasah in de murnyng. [farlyanna gi madrasah satoo buku pon tak bwk. keep it up ghurl. ((= ] den in class sempat msg a'an. ngah bored mahh. den lesson ended early and ayah fetch mie home. reached home den bro ajak gi harbourfront nyer banquet to mkn. so, we all went dere. mie, bro & syz ate wantan noodles. while ayah and baby bro shared a bowl of yong tau fu. and mama ate yong tau fu *curry*. de colour mcm laksa shey. not curry. den headed home after eating and slacked at home de whole dae.

tyll it was mlm and we had dinner at tanjong pagar railway station foodcourt. went dere at ard 8.3o. de foods dere are verie bad but de abgs ard are not. hehex. mie and syz kept looking here and dere. after eating den headed home and watched arsenal vs chelsea's game. den msg zackie about bgr thingy in midnyte. ferst tyme siotx msg pepanjang. hahax.

. SHOWT OWTS .
-> ` tEngkU mOhAizaD - tanx a millon dude for tagging at my board almost everydae wen yew blog in yewr entry for de dae. dats so swiet of yew. [dont blushh yet horhh.] yew take kaire aites. *hugs and kisses* -

hmm.

2005-08-19T14:12:00.000+08:00

haiz! im feeling sho damn lost at dis verie moment in tyme. it sux to be feeling like dis. feeling lost and helpless. wit no one dere to comfort mie. no shoulder to cry on. *if onlie suicide waszen a sin* hmm.

yak on de fone wit d a n for a while ytd. kenengan silam melayang-layang beb bobal kat fone ngan dier! haiz. tapi takpe. yanaa strong laydee. *angelic smyle*

never could imagine life without yew,
from the moment yew walked into my world.
never know how long the loving flame could burn,
but losing yew has forced me to learn.

let's have one last kiss ;
one last touch,
one last tender moment between us.
one last dance ;
to our first song,
while pretending there's nothing wrong.

i didn't mean it when I said I didn't love yew so,
i should have held on tight i never should've let yew go.
i didnt know nothing ;
i was stupid,
i was foolish,
i was lying to myself,

baby...
when yew left i lost a part of mie,
it's still so hard to believe.
come back baby please cause,
we belong together.

who else am i gonna lean on,
when times get rough.
who's gonna talk to mie on the phone,
till the sun comes up.
who's gonna take yewr place,
there aint nobody better.
oh baby, baby
we belong together.

i only think of yew,
and it's breaking my heart.
i'm tryna to keep it together,
but i'm falling apart.
i'm feeling all out of my element.
i'm throwing things,
crying.
trying to figure out where the hell i went wrong,
the pain reflected in this song.
ain't even half of what i'm feeling inside.
i need yew back in my life baby!

haiz!

2005-08-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

TO A GHURL OWT DERE!!

haiz! some ghurl just dont noe how to get de lyfe of their own. instead of minding her own business, she goes around bugging other peoples lyfe. just becos an ex of her gifs anoder ghurl kisses in de comp, she saes de ghurl no maruah diri! sho de mepek sak. salah org tawu carik. but salah sendiri tanak tgk. haiz. aper nak jadik. kater jek bdk poly tapi... haiz. gosh! i shall stop toking bout her. its making mie more farked up!

TO RIDHUWAN!

hey dere. it was kewl slacking wit yew just now! kejap pon kinda okae. yew're fun to be wit! and hope to always see yewr smyles on yewr face. dont let it fade aites. ((=

damn!

2005-08-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

GHURL: "can i noe whu is yewr msn nicks dedicated to?"
BOY: "err. someone."
GHURL: "can tell mie abit about her? who noes i can help yew get her back."
BOY: well, her name has 9 letters, has de vowel 'a', has 'n' and starts wit 'f'. shes styll 16."
GHURL: "err. deres onie 1 name in my head but im afraid to gamble."
BOY: "just gamble arh. whu noes yew're ryte"
GHURL: "err. dowan arh. why not yew just be a straight forward person by telling mie."
BOY: "why are yew haunting mie at nyte?"
GHURL: "who is de 'yew'?"
BOY: yew nur farlyanna!! why? six months has passed and de thots of yew are styll haunting mie! we were togeder for onie two months. why yana why?"

oh gosh! im reallie out of werds! i haf actuallie just finished yakking on de fone wit z u l and he made a confession! hmm. he confessed dat he styll had hearts for mie. wart am i to do now? i need help. i just dont want history to repeat.

to be frank, my heart is styll beating for d a n. my heart was beating damn fast wen i sensed he was coming towards mie. and wen afy sang 'meraung' to mie and changed de lyrics to my name and d a n's, water filled my eyes! iszen dat clear signs dat im styll falling for hym. gosh! i wanna break down. if de news abt hym being attached turns out to be true den i just donoe wart on dis tiny earth wud my reactions be lyke.

just a shout owt to EZad! tanx dude for dropping by my bloggie. de advices given was greatly appreciated. and yew too take kaire. yew look stressed too. hehex. see ya. *hugs and kisses*

ohwee!

2005-08-14T18:07:00.000+08:00

hmm. ferst of all, apology pleaded ya peeps for not blogging dis few daes. its just dat im going thru a roller coaster emotional ride. lotsa things has happened and it has definately affectted my mind and made mie land in dis situation. *grinx* how bad can those ppl be to make mie suffer tyll like dis.

de one thing dat has definately affected my mind is getting to noe de fact dat d a n is now attached. gosh! how unsangkerable can dat be. after all de tymes we spent togeder, now dis. hmm. no comments tho. he has de rites to be wit whuever he wants to.

budden. tanx to peeps around mie for making mie smyle again. lyk f e e q, f i s z, m i s z y, i r a & nort to forget to my fellow syztahs too. tanx a million for making mie smyle again wit all yewr lame jokes and etc!tanx a million agai peeps. i owe yew guys one. muahx! ((=

b i d a d a r i

2005-08-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

kenangan silam aku dan dirimu,
berdua sesama bermadu.
saling berjanji sehidup semati,
hakikat di dunia ini.

segala yang dikata harus di kota,
ibarat adam dan juga hawa.
alangkah indah sewaktu bercinta,
tiada senjata yang dapat menghalang kita.

kau umpama bidadari,
suci bagai embun pagi.
tapi aku belum pasti,
apakah cintamu itu suci.

kau hadir membawa erti,
penawar di kala sepi.
sehangat dian yang menyinari,
bersama cintamu abadi.

damn!

2005-08-08T11:29:00.000+08:00

walaowei! why on dis tiny earth must arsenal lose to chelsea? spootid shey. but nevermind! chelsea won by luck! *bleahx* hahax. actuallie din reallie catch de whole game. cos mama wanted to watch csi. so got m i s z y to keep ie updated on de game. i bet m i s z y oso din watch de full game cos he onie msg mie wen chelsea scored de ferst goal den quiet. wen i went to check de score, it was chelsea leading by 2 goals to 1. damn!

ytd yak on de fone wit d a n. we yak bout some rubbish. but it was for sometymes onie. cos mama needed de fone. and d a n reminded mie of OUR past. i kept quiet for sumtyme after he saed sumtynk dat offended mie and he went "larh! bey yew majok?" damn! i miss hym and his werds. but styll, we've to carry on wit lyfe tho.
[[ showt owt ]]

to d a n: tanx for everyink yew gaf mie wen we were together. i noe it hurts wen a ghurl just hangs up de fone. but i carn help it. yew forced mie to. sho sorrie. and just remember, watdeva happen, de memories we shared will never be erased from mua mind. muahx!

muahx!

2005-08-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

[[second english poem___.

de reasons why i lurfee yew are very clear to see,
ferst of all is de way yew look at mie.
de way yewr eyes sparkle in de light,
de way everything but yew is out of sight.
wen yew are around mie,
all i see is yew.
and wen yew're not around mie,
it will be yew whom i miss.

anoder reason why i lurfee yew is yewr kisses,
de tenderness and swietness of yewr lips.
wen yew kissed mie,
i felt like i was in a dream.
yew made mua heart beat so fast,
dat i wish dat night could've last all my life.
and if my life was a tape den i wud always press rewind,
cos dere is where yew i would always find.
i wud never press fast forward and i'll always go back,
because dat is wen yew kissed mie and dat's where yew are at.

anoder reason why i lurfee yew is yewr voice ; so deep and sweet,
and in mua head is where i keep it.
i even lurfee de way yew sleep ; so peaceful and calm,
yew make me feel like i could never be in harm.

anoder reason why i lurfee yew is yewr smile,
I feel like i could die.
i just lurfee yew sho de verie much!

to be frank, deres just too many reasons why i lurfee yew.
and if i keep going with this poem, i noe dat it will never end.
so for now, its just i love yew.
and remember dat watdeva happens, i'll lurfee yew styll.

aarrgghh!!

2005-08-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

hmm. todae woke up onie at 11 in de murnyng. its considered layte cos i hadta wake up at 12, 3, 6 and 9 a.m cos im currently on medications. de eyedropx needs to be applied every 3 hours. i wanna sae tanx to mama for waking up just to apply de eyedrops for mie.

woke up at 11 den ate breakfast. had prata for de dae. den msg m i s z y oso. after having breakfast den watched mtv for awhile while wayting for athira to pass mie de comp. once i got de comp den went into msn and chatted wit syz nirah for awhile den she had to go off. den now here i am blogging. i'll be back tonite if dere no disturbance! ohwee! see ya.

[[ showt owts!! ]]

to mama : tanx for being dere for mie. tanx for waking up in de middle of de nyte just to apply eyedropx for mie! lurfee ya too!! other den d a n. ((:

at last!

2005-08-05T16:18:00.000+08:00

ohwee! finally im back home from my 5-daes hospital stae. de stae was caused by a cornea ulcer in my left eyes. oouucchh. pain yew noe. every hour de nurse will wake mie up to apply eyedrops in my eyes. but tanx to some peeps i dont hafta sliep and wake up continuously. ((:

i wanna sae a million tanx to my classmates whu came down to pay mie a vsit. namely chris, sajeev and yi xiang. tanx guys!

also i wanna shout owt tanx to m i s z y for keeping my company de other nyte. walaopon kejap pon it was quite fun. yewr mepekx lei tahan ehk. hahax.

sore eyes!

2005-08-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

ohwee! i skipped skewl for todae. eventho it was de ferst dae of de week for skewl. do i look lyk i kaire? hahax. at least im skipping skewl wit a gud valid reason! and dat is i've got infections in my left eyes. it hurts! and i slept de whole of todae. waking up onie at dats onie after mama nagged at mie to wake up.

went to de toilet strait to bath and was msgin a n at de same tyme. asking further info abt my eyes. and he saed its infection. qwang3. thot of watching teevee after bathing but ended up de teevee watched mie sleep at de sofa! =p

sho many of todae's plan is spoilt due to me being sick! randell and gangs actuallie wayted for mie in de murnyng to attend skewl togeder as usual. i forgot to tell dem dat i waszen attending skewl. sorrie guys. also had to cancel de trip to Raffles hospital wit d a n. sho sorie dear. reallie din mean to buey yew. =x

gosh!

2005-07-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

walaowei! why yew so de perangai nie? sho de mepekx yew noe! it seems like we are arguing each tyme we tok on de fone. doncha find it wierd? trust is needed d a n. but de wae yew treat mie is. arrgghh!! forget it. i dowan to elaborate any further. it will make US worse.

wow!

2005-07-30T12:56:00.000+08:00

yelah! sumer slh i pe! msg slh, tak msg slh. aper nie? wen i msg, bey yew tatawu nak reply. wen i tak msg, yew kater i doink shit behind ur back. waddafark? wen im outside, yew get mie to ring yew up once im home. wen im finally home and i ring yew up despite de fact dat im tired, yew lak buwat perangai tanak bobal!. aarrgghh. i need yew to help mie re-built myself and my confidence but de wae yew are acting is making mie lose and not gain it!

ferst dae of werk at delifrance was damn tiring! worked de same shift wit kak sheila, jothi, uncle wong and fion. learnt how to make de differnt types of drinks dats available dere. den learnt some of de product dey sell. learnt and learnt and learnt till it gaf mie sucha headache. den i did some of de drinks order. BAD for a ferst timer like mie. hahax. den around 10, we cleared everytink. did de closing. learnt how to clean the thingy and etc. left onie at 11.15 cos de stoopid coffee machine gaf us problem.

daddie & mummie took mie home. den fetch de others and we went to al-ameen to grab sumtink to eat. msg d a n. den he got mie to call hym once im home. and upon reaching home, i rang hym up despite de fact i was tired. and it wasnt appreciated! he gaf an attitude! damn! i shall not re-type wat i had typed somewhere in de beginning of dis entry.

oraitey peeps. gotta end dis entry cos now i need to prepare for werk. a tiring 4 to 11 dae. haiz!

l u r f e e

2005-07-28T18:35:00.000+08:00

oh gosh! im suddenlie soo into english poems! i wonder wat has gotten into mie. *yana wonders* but styll, heres a piece i wrote while wayting for d a n to reply to my msg just now.

i looked in de sky last nite,
& saw a really beautiful sight.
a star shining down so brite,
givin' mie a sign OUR lurfee is rite.

i wished upon dat star,
to bring yew home to mie.
and de angels went singing a song,
of hope & harmony.

dey told mie to be strong,
for it won't be long.
til yew are wit mie again,
back in my arms where yew belong.

hope yew guys did enjoy it! copyrighteed: yanaa

shag!

2005-07-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

gosh! now i must use de werds of i ' k a l and dat is "im shag".! hahax. no offence horhh. but its true pe. yew slalu ckp yew're shag! ((:

im seriously damn shag at de moment and i dont tynk i'll blog in todaes entry. so tyll next tyme ya peeps. gud nyte everybody!

<3 d a n

2005-07-26T06:20:00.000+08:00

*yawns* actuallie im styll supposed to be sleeping cos my lesson starts layte for todae but im sacrificing my tyme just to blog in a special sumtink. hehex. and i wanna sae a million tanx to syz nirah for de courage yew gave mie. if yew're reading dis, tanx syzta!

actuallie, ytd had de chance to yak on de fone wit d a n again after sho long din. all tanx to syz nirah. syz nirah was actuallie chatting wit mie in msn wen she saed she called 'ex-hym' [fisz] but it was to no avail. so, i too tried my luck to call MY 'ex-hym' [dan] and i was so shhocked dat he rallie called back! ohwee!!

yak wit hym for almost 3 hours wen i decided to put down de fone cos i cudnt hang on any longer. he was as sweet as last tyme. eventho we had a few arguments but styll, it was as sweet and romantic as past daes. just dat dere waszen any 'baby' & 'sayang'. =x

shout owt

sowie alot alot dan! i knew yew called back after we hang up de fone. but i was too tired to ring yew back. sorie horh. and oso, yew're styll as sweet and romantic as last tyme. wee! i miss those daes. can i haf it back? *wink*

humie!

2005-07-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

ohwee! finally im back! its finally home swiet home! well. lemme tell yew guys my experience dere kiex. and dis is how it goes. [[cam nak tules testimonial larh plak]] hahax.

// DAE ONE___.
dae one was kinda okae. din do much tho. woke up as early as 6:ooa.m. cos had to leave hume by 8:3oa.m. it sux to wake up sho early in de murnyng! siap2 everytink den drove to a resthouse to meet up wit ayah idris and family. abg rashid's ghurlie din tag along cos she had sumtink on. den drove on to Melacca. pain sia my ass. sat for abt 3 hours. qwang3.

reached dere at around 12:3op.m den chill arnd. sit and do nutink. hahax. den ate lunch. de food was not dat great thoo. hehex. after eating den sat arnd and at 3 we left for tampin. walk and walk and walk. it was sho tiring.

den after a long dae of walking, we headed to anoder nenek's humie. donoe wats her name. ((: came back to ayah idris's kampung at ard 7 plus den dey had bbq and steamboat. de whole famelee was dere. sho kecorable shey. i ate quite alot. but lucky never kena food poisoning. =p knock out EXTRA early sia. 10:30p.m i went to dreamland oreadi. no computer mahh. waddahell can i do dere. handfone oso no reception cos de kampong was uphill. *grin*
// DAE TWO__.
todae was much betta den yesterdae. ((: REAL MUCH!! hehex. woke up at 8:3oa.m. mama woke mie up. den quickly bathe. de water dere was damn cold sia! dey served nasi lemak for breakfast but i din haf it. din haf de appetite to eat. den wen it was arnd 10:ooa.m den we went fruit hunting. de nenek's humie got so many different type of fruits. dere was red & yellow rambutans ; mangosteens ; bananas and jackfruit. once we finished fruit hunting, we packed de fruits. my famelee brought home 3 bags of rambutans and a bag of bananas. anybody whu wants fruits can visit my place. ((:

i was forever slacking at dat place! hahax. wayted tyll it was tyme to go home. left de kampung onie at 3:oop.m. den drove to Angsana to do some shopping. msg auntie sue "awak! kiter nak pie angsana. awak nak kiter krem slm ngan abg aritu tak?", den she replied "dier hari ni off" hahaha!! de abg was dere! wee!~ sorie auntie sue! yew missed hym dis tym round! bleahx! hahax!!

den ayah drove back. went thru second link and de officers-in-charge sumer hensem2! hehex. dpt wash eyes! ((: den here am i now! finally home sweet home! i need some rest!! camats people!!

wee!

2005-07-23T07:38:00.000+08:00

ohwee! finally im going to kuala lumpur. wee! carn wayte to enjoy! hahax. just a simple note to all my furens and cuzzie nirah! and dat is take kaire horhh yew people! im sure gonna miss yew!! and make sure yew guys oso miss mie horhh!! ((: taking l otsa kaire everybody!

hate it!

2005-07-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

damn! todae aunt mai decided to postpone de kl trip to tomoro murnyng. dah smangat2 nak enjoi sumer shey! *sobx* besok gotta wake up EXTRA early! i hate it! can we just not go? im layzee to wake up sho early in de murnyng! damn!

nevermind! if i went den conferm i wudnt get to chat wit i z f a r h a n & oo wudnt get de chance to yak on de fone wit a f i q. hahax. hes actuallie a fren of my cuzzie nirah. kenal thru frenster den chat pat msn and now we are yakking on de fone! hes okae arh! his vooice rox. hahax.

aites peeps. im outta here! wanna go west coast to mamam. taking lotsa kaire! muax!

damn!

2005-07-22T10:41:00.000+08:00

people!~ i've finally finished editing my NEW blogskin! to all peeps! do check it owt horh!! and doncha guys dare leave without tagging! woah! so fierce! hahax.

kkiex. now i wanna start serious business!! dat is i've got BAD news for myself! my famelee is heading for K.L tonite! and todae i din attend skewl sho carn see d a n. *sobx* ytd never meet. todae oso never! omg! i carn live!! i wanna cry!!

to d a n : gosh! im gonna miss yew. i'll onie return on sundae! i donoe wat werd to use to tell yew im gonna miss yew! watdeva it is, i noe im definitely gonna miss yew and yew'll always haf a special place in my porcelain heart.

hehex

2005-07-22T09:42:00.000+08:00

gud murnyng people! i skipped skewl for todae. cos i overslept. too tired. [im forever tired] hahax. aarrgghh. how i wish i din wake up at dis verie moment! i wanna complete my dream. a special guy came into my dream. and dat is d a n. i wanna continue my dream! de dream is sho sweet. but dreams never come true. *sobx*

okiex peeps. i wanna search for a NEW blogskin. wee! enjoy!

= shout owt to d a n =
yew! i miss yew and de tymes we spent togeder! im suffering without yew! please understand! i reallie nid yew back in my lyfe. i noe lurfee can never be forced. but, its de thots of OUR memories dat is keeping mie going wit my lyfe! i nid yew back baby!!

outta lurfee

2005-07-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

oh my gawd! juz waddahell is wrong wit mie? past relationships is driving mie nuts!~ muhammad ramdan! why are yew acting dis wae? i noe dat it takes two hands to clap. i noe its over between us. but why on earth are we doing things dat we are no supposed to as frens? and, why are yew styll crossing my mind? why is it sho hard to take yew outta my mynd? two months has flew by and yew styll decides to stay in my mind? why am i styll missing yew? why am i styll wondering wat went wrong between us? why is de sight of yew oways visiting my mynd? is it simply becos we bump into each other in skewl almost everydae?or maybe worst, i styll haf hearts for yew? aarrgghh!! im sho stress.

i wonder! do i ever cross your mind wen yew oways crosses myne? i guess yew never tynk of mie. even wen i've tried so hard to keep myself buzie sho dat i can try not to tynk of yew so much. and did so much but still, de memories we share oways crosses my mind and sumtymes even bring tears to my eyes! i styll wonder if it was my fault dat we decided to go our seperate waes! but before anitink, i oways wonder if dere was reallie a nid for us to be going our seperate waes in e ferst place. gosh! it seems lyk life is reallie unfair. it pains mie lyk hell. i juz wanna be appreciated. i'm always treated like a rebound to guys. always taken as a rebound. wen dey nid mie, dey'd be wit their "i lurfeeu"'s. and wen wen i don't meet to their expectations, i get dumped, treated like a doll. i'm human too. i too haf feelings!

as for f a r h a n! to be frank, your painful werds is styll in my mynd! he took mie as a rebound to forget his ex. i guess i shant mention her name. de last werds to mie is styll being remembered. he even saed "well, u wanna talk about feelings? de truth is i takde any special feelings towards u. i had to force myself into dis relationship." waddaf*ck f a r h a n? wat was dat supposed to mean? if yew dont haf any special feelings den why didja swiet talk wit mie? why do u make mie fall for yew wen yew totally haf NO intentions of catching mie fall? it sux! juz remember! wart goes around comes ard boi!

=.a shout owt to d a n.=
i noe it was MY fault. but why didja let jealousy ruin our relationship? i hate to do dis. in public summore. but de truth is, i haf a confession to make. im styll crazily in lurfee wit yew! i just carn get yew out of my mind! two months+++ has passed and my feelings for yew has yet to change. my heart is styll beating for yew. and i swear its onlie yew. yew can tear open my heart to dig owt de truth. well, yew do noe how much pain f a r h a n has brought to my lyfe! i noe lurfee can never be forced but i seriously nid yew in my lyfe to guide mie thru! i've had enuff sufferings after yew left mie. why are yew doing dis to me? i carn seem to let yew go! yew're just a part of mie which i find hard to let go! please gimme a call to let mie noe dat yew styll lurfee mie. please don't leave mie hanging in de air. i reallie nid yew back in my lyfe. i noe yew noe it too. please. i'm on my knees!

suprise irah!

2005-07-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

wee!! im sho happie. and tired at de same tyme. hahax. din blog in for few daes coz waszen at home. was at auntie sue's hauz de whole of saturdae. had a kewl tyme dere. syahirah's suprise party. sempat msg m i z i e wen was doink some of de werks dere. den played some games dat was organised by cuzzie nirah. it was created for de kids but i too ended up playing it. ((: de peeps went off at around 10:00p.m. and it onie took mie 30 minutes to fall asleep. hahax. was too tired i guess. din even help do de clean up.

woke up onie at 9:45a.m. awaken by syakirah's slap on the ass. how cud she disterb my beauty sliep! *grinx* its okae tho. ((: bath and had breakfast. ate chicken rice for breakfast. den slack around and finally ayah came to fetch mie back. he sent mie home den he and mummie went to look for bro's army stuff. last minute additional stuffs. reached home, on de computer to chat and listen to song and etc. chat wit z u l & n a w a l.

went to sent bro to boon lay mrt station at 7:10p.m. cos he needed to book in tonite. den headed for west coast to haf dinner. den went to ginza plaza and mummie did some shopping at de budget shop while i and athira went to 7-eleven. we grabbed magazines namely seventeen and teens. den we headed home and now here i am blogging and chatting wit h u d a & z u l! im outta here! muackz people!

guys! =p

2005-07-15T16:51:00.000+08:00

im TIRED! well, din blog ytd cos was too tired. din do much. just dat i saw a someone i was so obsessed wit over dulu! dulu okae! now not anymore! bleahx! i've moved on wit lyfe babe! saw A N in de tran wen i was headng home wit gaddafi. he was heading towards cck. for 'aderlarh!' ahackx. dat was wat he saed! jumpe ur bunge ehk. hahax.

had a damn early nyte. slept at around 9:3op.m! early ryte! dat was after yakking on de fone wit R A N D Y. den missed called D A N cos wanted to talk to hym budden i fell asleep while wayting for him to return de call. so shorie ehk. was sho tired! woke up at 3:15am and saw 3 missed calls. all from D A N. showie again.

skewl for todae was pernormal. had practical lesson. den wen finished lesson at 1o:5oa.m, took bus number 811 wit randell and sajeev. went one BIG round to kill tyme cos i was meeting D A N onie at 12:oop.m. after de one BIG round bus ride, went to KFC cos sajeev wanted to grab sumtink to eat. den ate everytink up and it was tyme for mie to meet up wit D A N.

walked to 754. and as usual, D A N had to wayte for mie. *angelic smyle* den we yak and yak and yak. styll had tyme to *wink* i just donoe waddahell we both were thinking! den around 2:2op.m, he sent mie off to de MRT station. trained down to Dover den took 1o6 to head for Delifrance for de job interview. [kak shiela, D A N I A L is sho kiute!]

kenangan silam!

2005-07-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

setelah merelakan,
setelah kau bisikkan.
segugus janji janji,
tergamak kau mungkiri.

dikau pernah berkata,
akulah segalanya,
tanpa ku tak mungkin kau bahagia.
namun di sebaliknya,
setelah ku pervcaya.
kau bersikap dingin ku terpinga

to dose guys whu were once mine. whom i considered US being togeder a SERIOUS one. namely R I Z A L, Z U L, A N & D A N. dis is specially dedicated to yew guys! im not saying dat yew guys were de ones in de wrong but its just how i feel! and a million tanx for being dere wen i nidded yew. tanx for all de lurfee dat yew showered to mie.! and lastly, i miss de tymes!! *sobx*

hmm.

2005-07-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

oouucchh!! my knees hurt to de max siotx!! fell during p.e lesson in skewl. shit.

todae, kawan haikal regeant secondary namer firdaus confessed to mie and sae dat he got lurp for mie. padahal belom agik jumpe. gosh!

i just donoe my own feelings! is my feeling for D A N true? or am i feeling it becos he was once mine? is my feelings for F A R H A N for real. or iszit just lust? shud i gif A L E X or F I R a chance to be wit mie? i just dowan to get my hart hurt again! i've suffered enuff!! =(

pasrah!

2005-07-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

gosh! todae is a PASRAH dae for mie shey. lam train nanes sendiri wen was smsing B R O my few werds for him before he heads for camp. rindu babe! abang sendiri. *sobx* told him to take gud kaire of himself and told him to miss mie. hehex. den meet randell and all at yishun MRT and headed for skewl ; i was de ONLIE malay student in de class. de ONE and ONLIE semangat student. hahax. did straight line cabling. had fun doing it. hahax.

lunch came and headed for de auditorium to watch movie. a thai ghost story. n a w a l & her ghurlfrens were oso dere. tercarik2 high and low for i ' k a l budden cudnt spot him. den i msg him and he said dat hes in de canteen eating wit eirwan. din reallie concentrate watching de show cos was smsing i' k a l at de same tyme. so, it was de show whu saw mie smsing. =p

after de movie, went to 82o4B to haf theory lesson. den dan's class was outside at 82o5. and a DRAMA happened in class. some teary drama! i also actuallie wanted to cry tynking about de past. i mean how can i not wen de GUY is oways on my mind and in front of my eyes. de onlie thing dat stopped me from interacting wit him was de DOOR. pasrah jek dlm class.

after skewl, went home den brought athira to Delifrance at Holland Village cos Kak Sheila was werking dere and wanted to gif us a treat. ((:

kkiex. im outta here for now! wanna watch teevee. buwaish people!! anytink message my handfone kiex. dat is if ure de lucky ones whu gets to haf my number. ((:

johor bahru hurt my FIRM ass.

2005-07-10T07:17:00.000+08:00

gud muryng everybody!! im awake!! its early cos i haf religious class to attend. gosh! it seems lyke de angelic farlyanna is owt. hahax. but its onie for every sundae. keke. but before i go, i wanna blog in de entry for YESTERDAE.

yesterdae was a damn tiring dae. went to j.b wit my famelee except for bro and syz. den auntie sue's famelee tag along. but deirz is without uncle amran. had to squezze in de car. and my ass hurt!! =p

decided to go angsana[planned to meet uncle bob dere oso]. and while wayting, went shopping inside de shopping mall. den went to a few shop. den went to 'rejek shop' and dis hensem malaysian salesguy was looking at me synce de moment i stepped into de shop and at every station of de shop i went to, he'd be dere. den wen i accompanied auntie sue to pay up for de clothes she wanted to buy den dere de guy was. we had to wayte a while cos dere were some ppl in front of us and de guy was smiling to mie. den i told auntie sue, "malu larh kiter dier asek senyum2" and i guess he heard it cos he told his other fren "dier malu arh" *blushing*

aites people. im outta here for now!! gotta prepare for my religious class. ((=

WE

2005-07-09T03:32:00.000+08:00

*burp* gosh! im sho full after eating 1 plain prata and half of de egg prata. gosh! wat a big eater. hehex. its oreadi 3:33 a.m and im styll awake. wat to do! my eyes just carn shut cos i had been sleeping de whole afternoon. hehex.

din reallie do much todae. had lessons in de murnyng den trained home wit afy. he went off a woodland and i fell asleep from woodland tyll jurong east. reached home and continued my sliep. chatted wit huda in the nyte and also edited my blog layout. wee!! im beginning to haf fun edititng. hahax.

enjoy!

2005-07-07T16:41:00.000+08:00

oh my gawd! im sho tired. had a damn long dae todae!! the ferst thing i did wen i woke up was to bath hurry hurry cos i was oreadi layte for lesson. as yew noe, yanaa is forever layte. hehex.

during the ferst lesson for the dae, cudnt reallie concentrate in class cos i had sore eyes wit flu. and oso tynking bout his condition. *sobx* den listened to the teacher crapped about goal setting. and oso copied some notes. and was kinda shocked cos wen she was crapping den her elaborated info tak abes2 bobal psl soccer! its making mie miss hym more! *angelic smyle* den wen she was done wit her crapping, we had a small test. abt goal setting. sounds wierd. =p

den wen the lesson was over, i went over to her table and flipped thru some books den saw the book dat belongs to zickie and dan. i flipped open the book of zickie and i was sho shocked! his handwritting is sho nyce! even the teacher complimented and sae dat his handrytting is nyce for a guy. hmm. i agreed tho. ((: den wen to the canteen to grab a drink den headed for the locker to grab the books for mdm choo's theory lesson. had lesson onie tyll 11 cos deres a talk by the course manager.

had lunch at northpoint kopitiam. ate nasi lemak and drank soya bean. den ate everytink den headed back for skewl and was layte for lesson. hahax. had practical lesson. styll on global positioning system[GPS] den kol 3 liddat dah end lesson cos all teachers had a meeting. headed for home strait and now here i am blogging todaez entry.

aitex peepx!! im outta here! im TIRED!! camats people!!

ONE MONTH OF KNOWING HYM HAS TAUGHT MIE ALOT.

2005-07-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

oh my gawd!! i hate the morning i had for todae. it simply sux for mie! but its in the morning onie horhh! hahax. it was actuallie caused by a few thingy and the ferst one was caused by cadet liutenant i'kal. he had promised to meet mie up at choa chu kang mrt station to attend skewl togeder. i wayted from 7:1o a.m to about 7:3o a.m wen suddenlie an sms was recieved. i read the sms and it was from him. he saed dat he just woke up and is having fever. and he wont be meeting mie. i was sho farked up. i den quickly boarded the train which had just arrived and rang up randell to get hym to wayte for mie. den i reached yishun about 2o minutes layter and was sho shocked to see dan dere as well. =p

den we headed for yishun interchange and saw sara. den she told us dat lesson will start onie at 9:oo a.m and end at 12:oo p.m. dat was anoder thingy dat spoilt my dae! freako teacher! never inform us before hand. we den decided to walk to skewl and slacked under the void deck to waste tyme. den slacked for abt 3o minutes before heading for skewl. den we headed for skewl.
once i entered the class, i argued wit my teacher about her not informing us dat the lesson starts layte but she argued back and saed she did remind us one week ago! waddeheck? how were we supposed to noe dat it was finalised. she kept putting the balme on us for toking while she was toking and not listening to her. and i went "watdeva larh cher!" =p had lessons den at ard 11:ooa.m had our tea break. went to the canteen wit randell to buy nuggets and peach tea. brought it to class to eat den unluckie mie kena caught by a teacher. hahax. ate outside den once i finished eating, quickly went in back to complete my jobsheet. sempat played catchin wit afy before going home. he arh sho lame. beat here and dere.

walked to northpoint cos the bus stop was damn crowded. den headed for KFC to haf lunch. and my lunch was on randell. hehex. tanx bro! ((: ate lunch den trained down to jurong east wit daphne but she took onie tyll sembawang cos she had to do up a new ez-link card. i slept whlie was in the train. too tired arh. den woke up and saw an SCDF guy sitting. =p

reached home at around 1:55p.m den was lying on the bed and fell asleep. in my uniform! hahax. woke up onie at 7:3op.m and quickly took a bath. den decided to watch teevee wit fred. den at around 8:oop.m went to grannies place to eat dinner! and here i am home swiet home to blog dis shit. hehex. kkiex. and now im out from here!!

PS: ATTENTION EVERYBODY WHUS READING DIS BLOG AT DIS VERIE MOMENT! I, NUR FARLYANNA IS PLEADING FOR APOLOGY FROM MUHAMMAD HAIKAL FOR NOT BELIEVING HIS WERDS OF HYM BEING SYCK AND THUS THROWING MY ANGER ON HYM. niwae, i knew yew were reallie syck but it was just dat my daes were bad. sho showie aites. and get well soon!! ((=

gosh!

2005-06-30T19:27:00.000+08:00

OH MY GAWD!~ a cutie mutie guy reallie caught my attention just now in the skewl canteen. he was sitting facing mie and my eyes was just on hym the whole tyme we were at the canteen. he kept looking down at his handfone and to the sides of the canteen to look around for donoe wat and dat made it more possible for mie to admire hym. tanx ehk. but i was careful tho. each tyme he looked up to face mie, i'd pretend to look somewhere else. *angelic smyle* i donoe if he knew i was actuallie admiring his looks. but if he noes den i wud be sho malu! hahax. * nawal shud noe wat i mean. hehex. but do keep your lips sealed tho ehk! =p *

and im sho shocked dat he reallie did smiled at mie wen he passed mie just now. i was actuallie putting my books in the locker. im sho amused. =p i began to melt at dat verie instant. and rytting dis ish making mie melt even more!! hahax. his smyle was sho sweet. sweeter den honey!! it was great!! never will i forget. ((:

at the end of the dae, decided to trained home wit soon kiat cos we taking the same train after all. den saw some of the 1b guys. its three to be exact. hehex. the guy whu caught my attention was one of dem. and he even got the tyme to msg mie in the train wen actuallie the both of us were sitting quite near to each other. swiet ryte. hahax. i guess its just dat the both of us havent gathered enuff courage to be talking in public. hahax. i tak mkn org larh i'kal. ooppss. my secret slipped thru my tongue!! hahax.

* BUT WATDEVER IT IS, I NOE BAYBEE STEPS ARE REQUIRED! *

hahax.

2005-06-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

oh gosh! i wanted to type out dat todae was mua ferst dae of skewl. hahax. well. todae pagie as usual. before going to skewl, met up wit randell, sajeev, christina and daphne at yishun mrt station. den wen reach interchange den we decided to walk to skewl cos christina needed to save on her bus fare. walked to skewl. stopped by a mama shop to buy epok2 and milo. den we all crapped here and dere while walking to skewl. reached skewl about 5 minutes layte but mdm choo closed one eyes sho styll managed to get awae. den listened to mdm choo's theory lesson in 82o4b tyll i almost fell asleep in class. hehex.

den lunch tyme ate black pepper chicken rice. i chose the wrong choice of food. i was having ulcers and ate black pepper. it was killing mie and i was trying mua verie best to swallow up the food. but styll, didnt managed to finish the food. den drank green tea wit peach and iced milo. two drinks at a go. gosh! the black pepper must haf been killing mua throat. ahackx.

after lunch den headed to 82o4 for mr. cham's practical class. studied about gps. den mr. cham comment dat 1b did a better job den us. gosh! watdever mr. cham. =p den we headed to the open space to further our experiment. and i knew nutink cos i waszen paying attention in class. listening to mp3 and talking craps wit christina and smsing a'an. gosh! waddahell was i tynking. hahax.

den wanted to skipped p.e lesson but some smart alex said mark attendence den can go off. but wen we went dere den must do p.e. gosh! i had to do p.e wit my skert as i didnt had the intention to do p.e at all. freaking teacher. im gonna curse the teacher and the student whu saed it was onie attendance taking. freakos! den after p.e headed for north point to slack ard den headed home. once i reached home, had mua shower den did some cleaning up of my room. cleaned and threw things awae and i came across a box. i thot it was an empty box but i soon realised dat dere was sumtink in it. i opened the box and saw a dog tag and a name was engraved on it. owt of so many names, it was 'F a R h A N'. oh gosh! i was reallie tynking of wat to do wit it. thot of keeping it but den it will remind mie of hym. den thot of giving it to hym. but we dont evn contact each other anymore. except for in msn. the hi-bye conv. haiz. so stress. but now the dog tag is worn by mie cos i lurvee the design of it. the name is on the back of the dog tag so whu cares.

den decided to chat in msn den chatted wit rafeeq from ITE Simei. a fren of i'kal. dey attended the CLT camp togeder. congrats guys SIR RAFEEQ AND SIR HAIKAL. ((: rafeeq is a kewl guy! so hot! hahax. he sure is one chap of a ghurls dream. hahax. chat wit hym abt some craps. den exchanged numbers and etc. satu pergi ader laen dtg larh babe!

well well well

2005-06-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

a shawt owt to m uh d f ar h a n!!~

.eu left mie!
.fine, eu had eur victory
.but did eu notice how much pain eu've caused?
.i thot i cud ignore eur flaws
.but i was undoubtedly wrong, i'm sure!
.guess mua pain has no physical cure
.for the pain eu caused mie
.needs sumthing more, really
.sumthing dat's different and true
.sumone lurving and sumone new.
.i dont need eu anymore, go away
.eu'll hurt mie even more if eu stay!
.dont make me sway.

well well well. since i finished skewl VERIE EARLY todae, i decided to rush back home and do reflections on certain issues. i've spent the whole dae doing some deep tynking if i shud styll go on wayting fer m uh d f ar h a n after wat happened. and my decision was i shall not wayte fer hym anymore cos its reallie going nowhere! i noe he's heppie wit his lyfe now. so, all the best ya. and up dere is a lil shawt owt to eu. tanx fer everytink. and its nyce to noe dat eu were dere!~

hidden messages

2005-06-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

*PWEASHE UNDERSTAND THE MEANING HIDDEN BEHIND DIS ENTRY*

take mua hand & never let it go.

i didn't mean it wen i said i didn't lurvee eu so
i shud haf held on tight
i never shud've let eu go
i didn't noe nutink ; i was stoopid ; i was foolish ; i was lying to muaself.

wen eu left i lost a part of mie
it's still so hard to believe
cum back baybee please,
cause WE BELONG TOGEDER!
whu else am i gonna lean on wen times get rough ;
whus gonna talk to mie on the fone till da sun comes up ;
whus gonna take eur place ;
dere ain't nobody better,WE BELONG TOGEDER!.

all dat i wish is look into eur eyes once again.

i'm trying to keep it togeder
but i'm falling apart
i'm feeling all out of mua element
i'm throwing things ;
crying ;
Trying to figure out where da hell i went wrong.

it's hard to tell mua mind to stop loving eu especially wen mua heart still does.

why do we wait until it is too late?
why do we let someone else haf wat we were too scared to reach out and take?

i wish eu wud turn around and say, "I desperately need eu."
i wish eu wud say eu're sorry because dat's all eu'd haf to do.
But most of all I wish eu knew how much i need eu and how much i really do love eu.

i wud gif eu the world;
i wud gif eu mua soul.
just to be in eur arms again.

im missing eu evry second of evry minute ; evry minute of evry hour ; and evry hour of evry dae.- *RETURN TO ME*

tak terdaya lagi bernafas ;
jiwa daku semakin lemas ;
dahagakan cintamu ;
kaulah nyawaku.

the more i try to push eu away,
the more i get pulled to eu.

eu will remain the sweetest thing in mua heart. NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS THINK.

+ all i want is eu +

// the guy wit the black baju kurong wit black pants // quiksilver snowcap // osiris shoe // cheerful hello // wen i ferst saw HYM.
m uh d f ar h a n

haiz. im styll trying to figure out where the hell i went wrong wen i was wit hym. and if im just waysting mua tyme and tears wayting fer hym. voices tell mie i shud carry on. mua mind hates hym BUT mua heart styll lovs hym.

tears

2005-06-20T17:39:00.000+08:00

haiz. im sho damn tired. just came back from skewl. it sux fer sure! ferst dae dah start lesson. stoopid choo & cham!~ june intake takde mat hensem2 shey. but afy saed dat byk matrep. hmm. matrep tak maen arh. =p

tadie nak gi skewl den ngah wayte for afy bey nampak dan and guess wat! i was weak on mua knees! i wonder wat power he posessed mie wit. hahax. den he was actuallie wayting for zickie and danial. saw dem oso. den studied during choo's lesson tyll 12.oopm den had lunch in skewl. ate nasi ayam steam chicken.

den wen alek jek on msn den nirah cuzzie sent mie a sumtink dat shocked mie. an msn conversation she had wit m uh d f ar h a n. stress jek bacer. it was sometynk about his future daughter. [nur syarifah alwiyah bte muhammad farhan]. nyce name dere dude. (: den kluar
namer satu pompan agik and it was sometynk like noor cartini. well, if the ghurl reallie do exist den i wish dem best of luck.

haiz. im styll trying to figure out where the hell i went wrong wen i was wit hym. and if im just waysting mua tyme and tears wayting fer hym. voices tell mie i shud carry on. mua mind hates hym BUT mua heart styll lovs hym.

i mish hym!~ i want mua chance to be wit hym once again!

2005-06-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

I NEED EU BACK IN MUA LYFE BABY COS WE BELONG TOGEDER!

oh gosh!~ im sooo damn tired! but styll. i'll try mua verie besh to blog fer todae aites. fer you peoples sake. hmmph! nahh. im sincere aites. dis blog comes from da bottom of mua heart. chey. sho feeling. hehex.

well. did quite a number of things todae. once i woke up at nearing 1p.m den mua mama got mie to bath cos we suppose to attend a kenduri at a cuzzies place. the kenduri is at jurong east street 42. siap2 all den left the haus at ard 1.5opm. den once we reached dere, mua nenek asked us to grab sumtink to eat den i took white rice wif chicken, sotong, and acha timon. the food waszen dat bad arh. den ate 3 lollipops. hehex.

went back at around 4.3opm den headed hume. once at home, i took a shower den watched mtv tyll i fell asleep on the sofa. kwang3. den wen i woke up, it was owiedi 8.30pm. lamer siotx tido. hahax.

bangon den strait awae on comp to chat ; dgr lagu ; check owt the new things in frenster and finally to update mua blog. (: i lurvee mua layout. (:

i mish hym loads. will i get mua chance to be wit hym once again? <3

HATRED!!~

2005-06-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

BIATCH!~ I HATE YOU!~ KEEP DAT IN MYND! I HATE YOU!!~ [im feeling muchh betta now after showting mua heart owt. and biatch will oways be biatch! get dat?]

okae. lets stop toking about her. it makes mie sick! well, lets start toking about mie. and mua simple life. the simplest life ever. woke up todae quite layte. at around 12.3opm and dat was becos mua mama woke mie up from mua beauty sliep to inform mie dat she was going owt. woke up den strait awae bath den ate old chang kee. bro bought it back. and how unlucky can he be. he wanted police force but got into civil defence. cian dier. but not bad pe. lei kasi mie buwat kawan ngan kawan2 dier. hehex. watched mtv tyll ard 4.3opm den ring wan up. yak wit hym on the fone fer about 15 minutes cos i cudnt reply his msges and nirah cuzzie saed dat he kinda pasrah. hehex. org dah rindu. kwang3. after yakking on the fone, went to on the computer and chatted wif nirah cuzzie. and oso updated mua frenster. dis guy namer amir wanted to be mua fren. (: den at ard 6.45pm went to nen's place to haf dinner. ate rice wif sweet and sour fish. yummy. had dinner den went home with fred and decided to blog! enjoi reading!

i miss hym!~ will i get mua chance to be wit eu once again?

i carn help falling in lurvee wit eu

2005-06-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

gosh! reallie didnt do much todae. woke up onlie at 12.3opm. dats becos i slept at 4.ooam yesterdae. yak on da bed wit mua syzta. 9 hours in wonderland. (: acceptable okae! once i got up from bed den i headed to da twelet to bath den ate koko krunch while watching teevee.a show hosted by oprah. nyce show shey. its actuallie a show where some american people talk about their lifes and others can get a chance to learn from their stories. kewl ryte. (: watched it wit mua mama. den once da show ended at ard 2.oopm den went to play ps2 wit fred. kept him company as bro waszen around to. den teman him play pai dah bored den decided to watch da teevee again. watched hi-5. [deres a kid in everybody] *angelic smyle* once hi-5 ended den i on da computer to do some editing of pix. and to blog. den wen i was browsin thru frenster, came across m uh d f ar ha n's account and was kinda shocked to see dat he uploaded da pix. i edited fer hym. at least someone appreciates mua effort. (:

* i c a r n h e l p f a l l i n g i n l u r v e e w i t e u *

is it lurvee?

2005-06-13T16:42:00.000+08:00

haiz. just got to noe dat Ahmad Tarmizie dah break ngan his ghurl. pity dem. padahal dah lamer. hmm. den smlm chat wit hym. he was acting kinda wierd. but no comments tho. (: chat pon kejap jek. cos he gotta go do some cleaning up.

den went to west coast to grab dinner wit my whole famelee. and saw hasree and the fads. hasree is sho kiute. (:

but my heart is styll fer m uh d f ar h a n and it will oways be. (:

i'kal.

2005-06-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

oh my gawd!! i hate the morning i had for todae. it simply sux for mie! but its in the morning onie horhh! hahax. it was actuallie caused by a few thingy and the ferst one was caused by cadet liutenant i'kal. he had promised to meet mie up at choa chu kang mrt station to attend skewl togeder. i wayted from 7:1o a.m to about 7:3o a.m wen suddenlie an sms was recieved. i read the sms and it was from him. he saed dat he just woke up and is having fever. and he wont be meeting mie. i was sho farked up. i den quickly boarded the train which had just arrived and rang up randell to get hym to wayte for mie. den i reached yishun about 2o minutes layter and was sho shocked to see dan dere as well. =p

den we headed for yishun interchange and saw sara. den she told us dat lesson will start onie at 9:oo a.m and end at 12:oo p.m. dat was anoder thingy dat spoilt my dae! freako teacher! never inform us before hand. we den decided to walk to skewl and slacked under the void deck to waste tyme. den slacked for abt 3o minutes before heading for skewl. den we headed for skewl.
once i entered the class, i argued wit my teacher about her not informing us dat the lesson starts layte but she argued back and saed she did remind us one week ago! waddeheck? how were we supposed to noe dat it was finalised. she kept putting the balme on us for toking while she was toking and not listening to her. and i went "watdeva larh cher!" =p had lessons den at ard 11:ooa.m had our tea break. went to the canteen wit randell to buy nuggets and peach tea. brought it to class to eat den unluckie mie kena caught by a teacher. hahax. ate outside den once i finished eating, quickly went in back to complete my jobsheet. sempat played catchin wit afy before going home. he arh sho lame. beat here and dere.

walked to northpoint cos the bus stop was damn crowded. den headed for KFC to haf lunch. and my lunch was on randell. hehex. tanx bro! ((: ate lunch den trained down to jurong east wit daphne but she took onie tyll sembawang cos she had to do up a new ez-link card. i slept whlie was in the train. too tired arh. den woke up and saw an SCDF guy sitting. =p

reached home at around 1:55p.m den was lying on the bed and fell asleep. in my uniform! hahax. woke up onie at 7:3op.m and quickly took a bath. den decided to watch teevee wit fred. den at around 8:oop.m went to grannies place to eat dinner! and finally came home to blog in dis shit! hahax. kkiex. now im out from here!!

PS: err. i'kal, i knew yew were reallie syck todae. i am sho shorrie for throwing my anger on yew and not believing the werds of urs at ferst. apology pleaded kiex!! ((:

• f a r l y a n n a • + h e a r t s + * y e w *

ATTENTION PEOPLE!!

UNOFFICIAL STYLL?

ups and downs of life.

*lost*

temptation

exorcism of emily rose

escape theme park

behind these hazel eyes ; because of you.

tanx. (:

wow!!

boring!

smyle!

where is he?

bored

my my my

de boi i found in hym. ((=

sorrie!

honey bunch

slieping beauty!

i will be ryte here wayting for yew.

showtie owtie

dammit!

fairy.of.love

s l o w l y

TIRED

missing my sunshine

hym + her

mie

seven.thingy

poetry side of mie

hehex.

chain letter?!

a p o l o g y

shits happen

disney character

haix.

poem.

l o v e

[[ezad]]

career in de future. . .

key to my heart

s u n s h i n e !

hmm.

i love yew baby!

honey!!

B I A T C H !

missing hym

shagged!

ohwee!

not mie!

how swiet

showt outs

back!

shout out to hym

townie! here i come!

_______

haiz!

tanx!

d a n

holidae!

hmm.

haiz!

damn!

ohwee!

b i d a d a r i

damn!

muahx!

aarrgghh!!

at last!

sore eyes!

gosh!

wow!

l u r f e e

shag!

<3 d a n

humie!

wee!

hate it!

damn!

lost